Thursday, 6 December 2007

My Blog My Say...

hei.. i'm back from joo chiat
had a meeting there
then i met some ex schoolmates
swandy and... ala... lupe nama die and iman azan also...

so, beginning next week, my schedule will be like...
ok, baru pikir je da rase penat...
oooppsss... jgn takot penat...

Mon to Wed, 10 -12 Dec 07
there will be Kem Perkasa 12 at PA Punggol Campsite
aged from 10-14 yrs old and we have 81 participants!
we have to stop at 80 actually but still many calls come in...
more than 100 applicants i guess
ade yg da book for june next year!
cane eh nak control 81 budak...
errr... and i have a module on fardhu ain
what is suitable for them ?
i mean fardhu ain very broad... ape yg necessary for them eh?
should discuss this with my boss tomorrow...

Wed to Fri, 12 - 14 Dec 07
Retreat, still at PA Punggol Campsite
we will discuss about one year calender of event etc etc...

Sat to Wed, 15 - 19 Dec 07
Training at K.L
ok so, 4 of us will be going to Pengasih
for some training, observe what dey do dat mayb can be apply at Gen-Y

then for sure discussion, brainstorming after K.L trip
coz when school re-open on the 2nd of january
Mendaki will send minimum 50 youths!
most probably 100 youths
paham tak? with only like 3 staff...
but then pak usop said, kak yati will be station at Gen-Y plus himself
plus another new staff...
please... we need that...
working with Mendaki means more paper work for sure, every month reports...
NUR@BBE... tell me about it...
i just submitted 108 case registrations this afternoon...
it's due a week ago actually
but hey! i only hav 2 hands...
i try my best k...
handling Kem Perkasa, Carnival, Cases...
Phone calls! tell me about phone calls...

sumtimes the caller tkde beri salam
terus... "anak saya tak balik rumah bla bla bla..."
and i was like in the middle of either, tgh buat expenes
tgh buat report, statistics...
other important thing dat required my full attention...

i'm not blaming or merungut cume mcm nak request operator je...
like bile org call kite, operator yang angkat dulu

press 1 for Ain Society (transfer to HQ)
press 2 for Gen-Y services (then a voice recorded explains)
press 3 for NUR sevices (again a voice recorded explains)
press 4 to for other services (EPS, financial assitance, other agencies)
press 5 to speak to our staff
then receptionist angkat
if i'm free then the call will be transfer to my desk...

how's that?

ceh! perasan besar sgt sampai susah sgt org nak bebual...
hehe... no lah... cuma sumtime when i'm focusing at a task
i hate it if i have to work on sumting else
coz end-up i will not doing it properly
ade je yg tertinggal...
any one agree?
multitasking is good but it is not really productive...
but hey! atleast i try... and won't stop trying...
sumtime when i feel like giving up...
i heard a voice... haiz... that voice that will always support me whenever i'm down
but where is it? where is it now?
haiz...

busy life i have huh?
nasib baik i takde boyfren, kalau tak boyfren mesti lari...
even my bestest fren ran away...
i'm born to be alone i guess...
i will never get one fren to be with me all my life
maybe it is my fate...

tuhan takkan menguji seseorang di luar kemampuannya...

but i have to admit that i feel so lonely... very lonely...
its killing me...
how does it feel...
when u used to have sumone to talk to
to tell him everything what you have been thru today, yesterday, this whole week
when there's someone laughing at ur jokes, laughing at ur merepekness
wen u are actually very very tired but u still wanna talk to him
coz after you talked to him, suddenly or crazily funny
all ur beban, kepanatan, stress sume hilang...

when i walked at the mall,
adidas boutique especially, liverpool merchandise...
and i saw things that we always want
or NEW product
and i was like took out my phone
dialled his number and...
ok, stupid of me... we're no longer together...
we used to...
"eh, paham tak, tadi nampak baju tu bla bla..."
and we're really really excited
and i can't share the excitement anymore...
poor me...

the restaurant, our favorite restaurant
our favorite food...

but...

i know ppl out there will feel sick, and ppl will say i'm a loser
i'm a freak or watever
i dun like ppl to tell me they know how i feel
dun tell me that, coz u won't understand, u won't know...

it's not easy and it's hard... very hard
to re-adjust ur life...
for more than 3 years he always there...
to share, to talk to, to laugh with, to cry on...
it's not easy ppl... it's not easy...

surprisingly, day by day, it's hurting me more and more...
it's bleeding deeper and deeper...

racun bisa meresap dalam hati...
lama2 akan jadi busuk
tiada erti nya lagi...
i can't feel my heart again...
i juz dun have the heart to do watever things...
watever i do is because work commitment
if its not bcoz of work
i'm so prefer to stay at home
and undergo my football therapy
let it be repeat games
who cares, its helping me...
it's the only thing that i can do to make me feel close to him
and reading all the cards he sent to me, the e-mails, the smses, the voice record
the pictures, our albums,
even i can just stare his name and mobile no at my hp screen...

you guys sick of me?
just change the url and go to other website
my blog my say...

23:02;

the MANAGER

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Qzai
26 july 1983
Singapore
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::TaLL ::BoYIsh
::JokEr ::Hot-TemPeReD
::LauGh-Out-LouD ::FootBaLLer
::BaBiES-LovER ::AniMal-HaTeR

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::SiNcEre ::CooL ::JoKES
::ADiDas ::LivErPooL FC ::FooTBall
::MuSics ::MoVies ::DVDs
::SpiDerMAn::PuRpLE ::BabiEs/KiDs
::ShoEs ::BaGs ::JaCketS
::WinDoW ShoPPing ::EaT ::SleeP
::AvRiL LaVigne ::PeTerPan ::PCD

LOSING points




::LiaR LiaR LiaR!!!
::BaCk-StabbER
::CoNtRol FreAk
::GiRlZ wHo ChaSE GuYz
::CuTE-MaiNtaiN-PlaStic GiRlz
::SluT/BiTcH

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