Tiada Ertinya
lara tiada akhirnya
bila menatap resah
sepi hingga waktu berkubur
sayu makin membuku di dada
terhiris kalbu
adakah inikan terus berlalu
apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu
untuk kembali ke pangkuan
dan bermesra denganku
tiada ertinya di sini
tiada ertinya berkasih
semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku
tiada ertinya menanti
tiada ertiya buatku padamu
diri yang merindui
apa yang ku mahukan
bagimu tiada ruang yang
berdiri dan memeluk dirimu
apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu
untuk kembali ke pangkuan
dan bermesra denganku
14:29;
The Real World
waaahhh... besnye bile bkk blog...
baru 2 ari tp ramai org tag
n u girlz btol2 kasi i lega...
psl korg agree dgn me...
well... this thingy really bothering me
actually until now...
tp later eh...
nk cakap psl...
RESULTS!!!
So... korg cane results?
hopefully sume ok...
nk ckp je...
i tk dpt maintain the dean's list award...
aaarrggghhh...
its frustrated tau
coz lagi 0.032 je lg!!!!!!!!!!
bingeeeettt...
nie sume sbjk supportives, requirements la
yg sll wat my grade tk best...
bkn nye nk ckp aksyen la
me myself bkknnye bright, A student
but i work hard to maintain...
my last sem lagi
tkde chance nk up lagi...
sedih... :'(
Tapi...
perkare da lepas mmg da tak bleh nk ubah kn?
so bersyukur lah...
nie baru btol bersyukur after all the hard work...
korg... i believe that korg pn bleh dpt deans list mcm i
insya allah...
atleast satu kali pn bole k
never mind kalau dis sem result tk best
ade chance lg
n grab that chance k...
atleast sekali dpt merase pernah ade deans list...
k zaimah!!!
jgn pk lagi...
yg penting aku da grad
yeaaahhhh.....!!!!
paham tk da grad?
best nye!!!
nak celebrate diri sendiri ah...
hehehe... (",)
congrats...!
cian tkde org congrats...
congrats la kat diri sendiri...
hehehe... (",)
ok so... actually i terlupe yg las thurs result kuar
with all the job hunting and interviewing
smpai lupe!
nsb ade org ingatkn... ;p
so... knp i ckp psl gd results, deans list sume?
coz... thats very important wen we look for job
i da kat situation skrg nie i baru sedar
how all dis things help us
coz bkn kite sorg je yg grad fr Uni
ramai lagi graduates...
kite kene fight utk dpt keje...
n of coz the company will choose the best
am i rite?
wen i go for interview
and they read thru my resume
dorg tgk CGPA...
seriusly...
n they tell me they call me for the interview
psl satisfied dgn my resume
n 2nd important thing is our
Cocuriculum
they like u wen u'r active
so juniors out there..
involve lah sebanyak mane korg mampu
i said mampu k...
jgn smpai pelajaran terabai plak...
but i trust all my juniors
all these things i said because
i don't want my frens to struggle hard wen kuar dr Uni
if u have degree with gd grades
trust me...
u are allowed to be fussy in choosing jobs...
like wat i did now...
i actually reject another offer
i went to the interview at 11 am
and guess what?
i don't think the interviewer know the ethics of interview
bcoz i don't feel like i'm in an interview
i feel that i'm under interrogation
they asked me questions that were very broad
it have 1001 answers to that question
ok i'm fine with that
but wen i give him my answer he gave me a smirked
he didn't respect my answer
come on laa
how can i know wat his heart's desire?
contoh kalau die tanye...
"knp saye suke pergi esplanade?"
the answers can be
bcoz ade free show kat luar...
or bcoz library die best
or bcoz bleh g rooftop
or bcoz bleh hangout kat tepi laut dkt town n not a beach
but his answer is
BCOZ KALAU NAK SOLAT BLEH JLN KAKI
PERGI MESJID MAULANA...
see? lain org lain kn pemikiran die
he can't expect me to know wat he wants...
he may said things like
"yes... i totally agree with u bla bla things give us
bla bla satisfaction but don't u think bla bla..."
that's they way how an educated person communicate
btol tk?
btol tk KHA n SULI?
cam gini kan cara nk communicate dgn org?
binget btol i...
n again its a muslim organization
n again they offer me very little...
they asked me wats my expected income
wen i mentioned the figure
ade ke patut die ckp...
"awak kejam lah with that amount, kite tk bleh bg..."
then he decreased to $1200-$1300...
huh? kejam?
how could he said that
he's the one who asked me
n i juz mention the market price for the undergraduates...
he said i bg u gaji up ckit je from andalus
(coz kat form kene tulis i pernah keje kat mane plus mention the salary sekali)
kat andalus i got $1010...
so die nk up ckit je lagi
i was like
HELLO!!!
itu i blom ade degree!
i ade pre-U je...
i ckp je dgn dorg trus terang minus the HELLO la
he said mmg tak bleh nk naik lagi
tkde bonus
kalau OT tk kire
medical claims tkde
keje long hours
tk digalakkan ade commitment lain
tk digalakkan kahwin dlm mase 2-3 tahun ni...
PAHAM TAK?
i'm seriously sakit hati, dissapointed dgn dorg
been to 2 malay organizations
and both mcm *tuuut*
i ckp terus terang kat sini...
if u girlz follow the discussion at Assiium yahoo groups
i totally agree dgn Huzei, Kha n others yg agree dgn die...
(i tk ingt sape)
i geram dgn org yg ckp
things like duit tk bleh bwk mati
yg penting pahala...
akhirat nanti yg kite dpt rewards kite...
bla bla bla...
kite duduk kat s'pore ni
or kat mane2 kt dlm dunie ni
bleh ke kite pergi giant or sing shiong
bile nk bayar...
"gua bayar pakai pahala bleh tk?"
come on laa... be realistic
we need money
bkn psl materialistic atau duniawi
but we need money to live
n the amount that the malay orgnztn or community
offer us is ridiculous
tak compatible dgn ape yg kite ade
kite blaja tggi2 pakai duit kite sendiri
bkn pkai daun atau pahala
cube ah pergi bank muamalat bayar pakai pahala
dorg terima tk?
Allah pn marah tau kalau kite sebagai
org muslim berpemikiran mcm gini
kenape org kafir sume lebih maju dari kite?
lebih di pandang hebat?
menguasai dunia nie?
psl dorg kaya! ade duit...
MONEY TALKS!
tp org melayu kite?
tkpelah...
bersyukur dgn ape yg ade
mmglah bersyukur, tapi tgk tempat laa...
kite tau kite bleh dpt lebih baik dari ni...
kite usaha... pk kn welfare org islam...
mcm mane org islam sendiri tk g lari kat tempat lain
coz we've been treated injusticely!
bende nie kite nk kene ubah...
to me...
satu je i pk...
da ssh payah my parents struggle to pay my fees
is it compatible with what dey offer?
turun naik k.l selame 3 tahun...
tp offer lebih ckit je dr org yg tkde degree
puas hati tk yah blaja...
abes pre-u terus keje
gaji kecik pn tk bleh cerewet
lame2 naik jugak pe...
i supposed dorg nie actually
tkde post for the undergraduates
sbb tu dorg offer je keje tp gaji ciput
puas hati ckp tkde kosong kan
daripade kasi gaji yg tk reasonable lgsg...
i'm not demanding
i'm juz frustrating with their mindset
tp my dad kate tkpelah
relax je dulu...
he said i've the right to accept n reject
i baru 2 weeks abes skola...
die tk kesah kalau i tk dpt keje dlm mase terdekat nie...
mmg ah...
cume i je rase tk sdap...
da 23 tahun nk msk 24 pn mak bapak masih tanggung...
nsb baik ade parents yg understanding and supportive...
(",)
oh ya... before i grad i ade ckp yg
i juz grab ape je yg ade dulu...
tp skrg i rase lain...
coz i punye org kalau nk keje
i give full commitment
tk suke quit sane quit sini...
tp tak tau lah
rezeki masing2 kn...
yg penting usaha
bersyukur tu bersyukur jgk
tp kite jgn jadi mangsa org2 yg ambil kesempatan
yg suke ckp...
"pahala... ikhlas... akhirat..."
its ok to work with the muslim organization
as long as they're under govt. sector
with all the complete staff benefits
coz we're working for our future
we will soon get married
have children
we have to think of our past
that was our parents paid for our fees
our present
bill hp, ez link, makan, duit for our parents...
our future
own family, rase ingin nk beli kereta, hidup mewah...
coz believe me...
org akan respect seseorg yg berilmu...
tp org akan lebih respect seseorg yg berilmu dan berharta...
my way of thinking may not be the same with others
but i think thats reality of life...
23:11;
First Interview
Everybody... 1... 2... 3...
"Itu kah dia kekasih yang pernah berjanji
memberi cinta untukmu sepenuh hati
ia akan menyesal suatu hari nanti
apabila ia mengetahui
kekasihmu ini ingin kembali...
oh kekasih mu ini akan merase gembira
andai dapat bersama untuk selama-lamanya
hanya untuk menyayangimu
hanya untuk bercinta lagi..."
ok everybody...
one more time...
"Itukah dia kekasih yang pernah berjanji..."
hehehe...
i rindu nyanyi lagu nie dgn korg2!!!
uwaaaa...
kn da rindu... cane nie?
or...
Ramai2... nyanyi kuat2... penuh semangat... jerit!
"BILA KITA MENCINTAI YANG LAIN...
MUNGKINKAH HATI INI AKAN TEGAR
SEBISA MUNGKIN
TAK AKAN PERNAH
SAYANGKU AKAN HILANG....!"
yun...
*wink* *wink*
;p
atau... dangdut satu...
"Di setiap ada kamu mengapa jantung ku berdetak...
berdetak nya lebih kencang seperti kenderaan mau perang..."
ok i merepek k
tapi tetibe di mlm yg penuh hening dan panas nie
i terfeeling tgk vcd, gossip2 hangat...
n gossip2 sume mesti ade selingan lagu2 mala segar
eh, tkde lah mala segar...
lagu2 trademark yg sememangnye menjadikan
itu semua satu kenangan yg terindah
yg sukar utk dihapusi...
yg hanye korg je yg paham...
gerenti kalau nk wat dgn org lain
org lain tkkn sambung...
:(
example mcm backgroud music...
mesti ade selingan...
starting lagu The Reason...
ataupn bile ckp by the way...
ade org yang sambut... "by the way..."
dan ape2 je lah words yg boleh dilagukan
pasti di lagukan
then drag lagi
nak wat dgn sape?!!!
nur...
if u read dis, later i teach u ah
how to drag... how to sing...
i know u ade bakat dlm nie...
hehehe... (",)
k zaimah drag eh!
padahal nk ckp bende yg totally tkde menenge dgn nie sume
eh tkde mengene...
hehe... drag lagi...
last tuesday i got a job interview at PERGAS
at wisma indah 5pm
so i went there after all the
"nk pakai bj ape?!!!"
finally manage to wear sumting dat suits for interview
except for the pants, i don't really like it...
so with my new adidas bag n a file
(seriusly feeling mcm da tkleh main2, kakak2 keje gitu)
n beberape rangkap doa...
i step inside the office...
kene bkk kasut lah plak
da lah pkai my sexy heel
hehe...
to cut it short
3 interviewers...
all guyz...
they said i'm over qualified for the job that i apply
well... i don't even know wat post
since i juz submit my resume
hehe...
instead of asst. admin
they offer me research assistant
for a biography of muslim scholars in singapore
from the year 1800 until now...
sounds good and challenging rite?
its not a full time job
its a project that i have to finish within 3 months
so i must do all the interviewing...
collecting data..
organizing... typing...
all my leader need to do is
commanding and guiding
wen they read thru my resume...
i stated there - facilitator of Six Thinking Hats Workshop
n they actually ask me abt it
instead of my course!
panik lah kejap...
he asked: so wat hat are u wearing now while interview?
how about me...?
how abt while writing biography?
so many questions abt hat!
to tell the truth i don't prepare that at all
and i got confused
but slowly, steadily
i gave them my sweetest smile
n explain...
"well... of course i will start with the white hat
coz i juz collecting facts...
bla... bla..."
i act so confident
padahal i juz ckp je...
tak pk btol ke salah...
but then die kate
"waa... bagos lah die nie"
huh? bagus... dlm hati aku main hentam je...
coz all these colors ade yg mix up sey...
bt surprisingly...
this was my first interview...
tp i tk takot langsung
mcm tk gabrah ke... nervous...
rase relax je...
cume gabrah bile tk tau nk jawab ape laa...
hehe...
BUT
one thing dissapoint me...
die offer gaji keciiikkkkk...
i was so shocked n dissapointed bile die mention that figure
n tkde CPF
understood ah since part time kn
tp still kecik
coz i nk kene kuar sane sini
interview org
da brape sey tambang
furthermore i kat jurong nk g kembangan
da berape sey...
n keje die quite tough
psl i sorg je buat
biography ulama' plak tu
bile balik i discuss dgn my parents
my dad melenting kejap
die terus pangkah...
nie lah satu nye organization melayu
dorg tk pk welfare ah...
n my qualification lagi...
my dad kate tk worth it
i bknnye tau sgt market price kn
tp bile my dad da ckp gitu
even dewi tak agree...
n ade lah yg ckp itu terlalu low for a degree holder...
so... kalau die kol mayb i tolak ah...
coz tk bleh berenti setengah jalan
coz its a project...
and nanti kul 2pm i ade interview kat Jamiyah plak...
hopefully nie ok laa...
to me, as long as permanent, full time
n ade CPF, i da hepi lah sey
yg pergas tu ade ke die kate yg since i'm not married
tk payah lah pk psl CPF bknnye nk beli rumah pn kan...
i'm strongly disagree with that idea
yelah... mmg ah blom nk beli rumah
tapi i keje bkn utk mase skrg je
for my future also
tkkn lah bile nk beli rumah baru nk kumpul duit kn...
ape lah org melayu punye pikiran
kdg2 terlalu sempit
kalau die kate tkde CPF psl part-time i bleh paham ah
nie die kasi reason yg tk reasonable...
hmmm... ntahlah...
am i too choosy?
no rite?
agree with my decision?
SMS ur opinion to
YES or NO (space) I/C No. (space) Your Name
to 999
pray for me for my nx interview k
thanks... (",)
btw my dad da belikan for my sister
AVRIL LAVIGNE
THE BEST DAMN THING
Best kn lagu kat my blog ni...
02:18;
Absent Minded + New Changi Hospital
gez wat?!
i forgot that arini kul 12
da janji dgn hakuna matata commitees nk g botanic garden!
i totally forgot...!
OMG!!!
ard 12.30, fana kol...
Fana: zaimah ko kat mane?
me: kat rumah lah, nape?
Fana: eh ko tk dtg far east? kn ari ni nk g Botanic garden?
me: huh? OMG!!! aku terlupe!!! totally!
Fana to others: korg mcm mane ni nk die dtg jgk ke? die terlupe!
(phone pass to Suli)
Suli: kak zai! u yg smgt nk bwk ur mum... n u je yg tau cane nk pegi...
me: sori2!!! i btol2 lupe...
Suli: tkpe2... *giggles* u ajar mcm mane nk g k...
paham tk? i btol2 terlupe!
padehal baru last week janji
n mmg tk remind lg pn
kirekn mafhum kalam lah kn...
sori 1000x girlz... i lupe!!!
well, so hakuna matata will be held kat botanic garden
instead of the ZOO...
the officer from Darul Ma'wa yg suggest
it happen to be my auntie..!
n dey thank me for make it easier to get thru dem
since tggu reply tk dpt2...
so las week i called her...
she talked to seri
we met her at 3 at Darul Ma'wa... mcm rombongan meminang
n settled!
will be held in June...
no probs girls...
always there to help
as long as i didn't forget!!!
still rase bersalah....
*sob* *sob*
mmm... my grandma msk hospital
at new changi hospital
my dad's mum
semput + demam
smlm da visit her dlm ptg gitu
semua ade...
meriah btol...
anak2nye... cucu2nye... cicit2nye...
da mcm hari raye...
or family union...
hehe (",)
hopefully u getting better grandma!
pray for u...
amiiin...
15:01;
IMM
nothing much to say actually...
but i need to blog
coz nk crite...
td ptg g larkin nak amek baju kn...
after 3 months...
believe it or not
blom siap!!!!!!!
aaarrrghhh...
me binget giler
tak cakap banyak terus tgglkn kdai tu
darah up
dah tak bleh nak bendung lagi
like come on lah
suppose siap 1st march
ni kasi chance lagi
mid april...
pn blom siap...
serba salah
coz dat nyonya jahit mmg cantik
furthermore affordable
tp lembab
lembab mentega
actually all we need to do is to call her...
one week before nk g amek
konfem siap
tp my mum konfiden banget...
later... she bought for me new clothes
coz muke i da panjang
muncung da bleh sangkot hanger
serius sape2 tgk muke i time tu
mesti da lari jauh2...
kasi lah i seribu jejake paling hansem dlm dunia
konfem i tak selera punye
hehe...
tkpelah...
sabar je k...
nx time nk try tmpt lain
lagipn da dpt baju baru pe..
hehe...
ala2 sixties cloth gitu ah
kimono pn bleh gak...
then at 8 kuar ag g IMM
bwk fikri... best...
tapi pnat yang amat...
g mamam dulu...
then... my noti sister with my assistance takotkan die...
makan je nak tapi tgk the real ikan takot...
hehe...
this pic is awesome rite?
hahaha... nampak tk tandok die kuar...
hehe (",)
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k then, da ngantok giler...
btw baru lepas tgk kat youtube org yg kene langgar MRT
giler ah! die sembunyi kt tepi trek
bile train dtg terus baring...
then digilis... lunyai... hancai...
eeeiiiiyowww....!!!
g youtube "Singapore MRT"...
k nite2... (",)
00:43;
Review Part 2
yeehaaa....
liv mng!!!
so wat else new?
aksyen la plak...
neway... suppose to blog yesterday
tp byk keje la plak...
keje ape eh?
oh... ade org order mkn
for 50 org...
so kene help my mum ah...
lgpn mcm tkde mood nk blog smlm...
all u need is
MOOD
no matter how bz u are
u can still blog
if u'r in the mood
kn2?
so... liverpool mng!!!
sape kate crouch bleh score pkai heading je?
die pkai kaki die yang panjang tu
semi-volley lagi tau...
fowler yg pass...
aaahh...
my ex-boyfren
makin tua makin mengancam...
hehehe...
tapi sedih coz
My Gerrard tk main... :,(
coz benitez nk rehatkn die...
die frust gak lah
he did sms me
tell me how sad he was
never mind dear, u still look awesome
even outside the pitch...
mmmmuaaahssss...!
ok... so...
liv will meet chelsea
at the Semi
2 weeks from now
as predicted...
can't wait!
surely the Reds will trash the Blues...
hahahaha... (",)
another match won by AC Milan!
as predicted also...
so both games were on my side yesterday
not like the other day...
see... we can't always get everything we want
God will give u this
and take that
so... bersyukur lah dgn ape yg ade...
Alhamdulillah...
k then...
i'm going to Larkin
to take my new dress...
hopefully it turns out fine...
bestu nak jalan2 cari makan...
my sister complained already...
coz i da lame tak hangout dgn die...
eh? dun get me wrong
hangout kat larkin ape ade sey...
kat City Square lagi laa
tempat bdk2 hingusan posing...
konon2 emo, rocker, surfer...
watever...
tak style ok... BURUK!
jahat eh kutuk... hehe...
eh aku nye blog aku nye suke ah!
hehehe... (",)
thanks Crouch for make it to
4-0 by aggregate
and congrats KAKA-AC Milan...
yess! i will always be in ur heart...
hehe...
oooppsss... Sori Abg Gerrard...
I'm juz kidding k Dear... (",)
11:58;
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