we always hope the best fr the one we love
we always have this kind of expectation...
for them to do the way we want...
if they did...
that was the most happiest moment...
we're living on cloud nine...
well... that's fantasy...
the reality is...
ppl change...
we hav to face that dreadful fact...
changing is good...
but wat if sumone change
to sumting that we find it hard to accept...
used to be very caring
but now not...
b4, always tried their best to find time to spend with us
but now... not anymore
even phone calls are very rare...
always be there wen i need...
but now...
he's there... but i know his mind is sumwhere else
he didn't give full attention like he always did...
ofcoz i feel sad with this changing
but wen asked...
nothing has changed
nothing has changed
nothing has changed...
now he's so far away fr me...
this long distance relationship
is very hard
wen he was here
we argued abt so many things
coz he can't manage his time
n we seldom met...
even to talk to him was very hard
wen called in the morning
he's working
evening... he had class
night... he did his asgmts etc
mid-nite... already asleep...
tell me who can bear with this situation...?
not 2 or 3 days...
but EVERYDAY!
but that was some old stories...
alhamdulillah... we still together...
despites countless of arguments...
gosh... no matter wat...
i can't never hate him
or be apart with him
wat should i do?
obviously he's not for me...
"Aku bukanlah untukmu...
meski ku memohon
dan meminta hatimu
jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya...
untuk diriku..."
and now... he's so far away...
the kingdom of Far Far Away...
both are still trying to adapt with the situation...
so far so good...
no matter wat i must accept that
he's a full-time career man now...
more responsibility for him...
but...
i'm in a terrible dilemma...
since this is my last semester here...
i only left with 2 months...
here in iium...
in m'sia...
of coz i'm so hepi...
finally i will grad... insyallah...
n i don't hav to stay here at this
terrible place...
actually not so bad...
it juz dat this is not my home
no matter where u go
there's no place like home
it's ok for not to be at home
as long as ur family is with u...
rite? (",)
since i left with only 2 months...
i will leave m'sia...
n he must go on with his 18 months training...
he can't visit me...
n i will not come here...
meaning that
last 12 january 2007
was our very last meet....
in our entire life...
we will not be seeing each other anymore
i cried every nite
thinking of this terrible nightmare
the reality that i hav to accept
i knew fr the beginning that
this will happen
but i can't believe it
it already happened...
my heart breaks... bleeds...
no matter how we argued before
hey... nobody perfect...
he's the only one who ever knows me
the only one who can never makes me hate him
no matter how hard i tried
he always know how to win my heart back
i can't hate him
i can't leave him
but in the same time...
i can't be with him...
this is the most terrible disaster had happened in my life
it is fine to love sumone
n he don't know abt it
n he don't respond
rather than to love sumone
n he don't know abt it
but he's very close to u
care abt u... be there for u...
n u won't dare to tell him
n he's not for u....
God...
plz help me to be strong...
"the perfect way of love
is not by loving the perfect person
but to love the imperfect person
perfectly"
