Seize The Day

FURIOUS

2007-12-09T17:00:00.000+08:00

Hola everyone...

ok shaddap, so liverpool lose!
so...? err... first in EPL...
never mind
i'm not furious with the team, especially my dear Gerrard
dey played well, ok, put in effort...

But the Referee!
son of the *****
$%$^&^&^%&&^&$!!!
$%#$^%#$%!!!!!!!!
%^$^&&^&^*%^%^%%^%!!!!!!

merepek punye ref
nampak sgt berat sebelah
he hate liverpool or what?!!!
the penalty for Reading
was so OBVIOUS is outside the penalty box!!!
its one foot away
bukan sipi sipi ke ape
jauh sia...! bodoh punye Ref!

then, 3 times, i repeat THREE or maybe more
liverpool player dijatuhkan kat penalty box
But NO penalty!

sampai commentators die ckp
liverpool deserves 3 penalties but not 1 was granted
but Reading get the penalty that should not happen

even the foul sume
sikit2 liverpool punye salah
the free kick and everything!
aarrrggghhh! i'm furious with the REF!!!
B*b*!!!

watever it is, i hope liverpool will win
well, MUST win this tuesday match
against Marseille
Nur pls watch it for me
its an important game
antara hidup dgn mati
mesti i feel restless kat camp nnt...

Good Luck my Dear, and your team
have faith in you
and another thing, i dun understand why Gerrard was replaced
20 mins before the game ended
Gerrard is the player that can play under pressure
in the situation like yesterday
we need him coz he inspires other players
he's our captain anyway
but nevermind, i'm not angry
i'm ok...

i'm going out now
got to buy some stuff for the camp
i haven't pack yet!

ok so, i'll be away for 10 days...
after the camp then to k.l
pray for my health and
may i be strong and tak penat thru out this 10 days...

will miss my family
my frens
my dear Gerrard - u take care k, i love you
and i will miss u like always...

mmmmmuuuuaahhhsss! for everyone...

Liverpool, YNWA... (",)

Tiada Ertinya

2007-12-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

Lara tiada akhirnya
Pabila menatap resah
Sepi hingga waktu berkubur

Sayu makin membuku
Di dada terhiris kalbu
Adakah ini kan terus berlalu...?

Apa nilainya jika sangsimu mengganggu...?
Untuk kembali ke pangkuan dan bermesra denganku...

Tiada ertinya di sini
Tiada ertinya berkasih
Semua telah kau bawa dan berlalu tinggalkanku

Tiada ertinya menanti
Tiada ertinya buatku
Padamu diri yang merindu

Apa yang kumahukan bagimu
Tiada ruangnya berdiri dan memeluk dirimu
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i know, i've posted this song before
but i dun know why, whenever i heard this song
seems like the whole world pause
left me with my feelings...
only us...

i miss you...

My Blog My Say...

2007-12-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

hei.. i'm back from joo chiat
had a meeting there
then i met some ex schoolmates
swandy and... ala... lupe nama die and iman azan also...

so, beginning next week, my schedule will be like...
ok, baru pikir je da rase penat...
oooppsss... jgn takot penat...

Mon to Wed, 10 -12 Dec 07
there will be Kem Perkasa 12 at PA Punggol Campsite
aged from 10-14 yrs old and we have 81 participants!
we have to stop at 80 actually but still many calls come in...
more than 100 applicants i guess
ade yg da book for june next year!
cane eh nak control 81 budak...
errr... and i have a module on fardhu ain
what is suitable for them ?
i mean fardhu ain very broad... ape yg necessary for them eh?
should discuss this with my boss tomorrow...

Wed to Fri, 12 - 14 Dec 07
Retreat, still at PA Punggol Campsite
we will discuss about one year calender of event etc etc...

Sat to Wed, 15 - 19 Dec 07
Training at K.L
ok so, 4 of us will be going to Pengasih
for some training, observe what dey do dat mayb can be apply at Gen-Y

then for sure discussion, brainstorming after K.L trip
coz when school re-open on the 2nd of january
Mendaki will send minimum 50 youths!
most probably 100 youths
paham tak? with only like 3 staff...
but then pak usop said, kak yati will be station at Gen-Y plus himself
plus another new staff...
please... we need that...
working with Mendaki means more paper work for sure, every month reports...
NUR@BBE... tell me about it...
i just submitted 108 case registrations this afternoon...
it's due a week ago actually
but hey! i only hav 2 hands...
i try my best k...
handling Kem Perkasa, Carnival, Cases...
Phone calls! tell me about phone calls...

sumtimes the caller tkde beri salam
terus... "anak saya tak balik rumah bla bla bla..."
and i was like in the middle of either, tgh buat expenes
tgh buat report, statistics...
other important thing dat required my full attention...

i'm not blaming or merungut cume mcm nak request operator je...
like bile org call kite, operator yang angkat dulu

press 1 for Ain Society (transfer to HQ)
press 2 for Gen-Y services (then a voice recorded explains)
press 3 for NUR sevices (again a voice recorded explains)
press 4 to for other services (EPS, financial assitance, other agencies)
press 5 to speak to our staff
then receptionist angkat
if i'm free then the call will be transfer to my desk...

how's that?

ceh! perasan besar sgt sampai susah sgt org nak bebual...
hehe... no lah... cuma sumtime when i'm focusing at a task
i hate it if i have to work on sumting else
coz end-up i will not doing it properly
ade je yg tertinggal...
any one agree?
multitasking is good but it is not really productive...
but hey! atleast i try... and won't stop trying...
sumtime when i feel like giving up...
i heard a voice... haiz... that voice that will always support me whenever i'm down
but where is it? where is it now?
haiz...

busy life i have huh?
nasib baik i takde boyfren, kalau tak boyfren mesti lari...
even my bestest fren ran away...
i'm born to be alone i guess...
i will never get one fren to be with me all my life
maybe it is my fate...

tuhan takkan menguji seseorang di luar kemampuannya...

but i have to admit that i feel so lonely... very lonely...
its killing me...
how does it feel...
when u used to have sumone to talk to
to tell him everything what you have been thru today, yesterday, this whole week
when there's someone laughing at ur jokes, laughing at ur merepekness
wen u are actually very very tired but u still wanna talk to him
coz after you talked to him, suddenly or crazily funny
all ur beban, kepanatan, stress sume hilang...

when i walked at the mall,
adidas boutique especially, liverpool merchandise...
and i saw things that we always want
or NEW product
and i was like took out my phone
dialled his number and...
ok, stupid of me... we're no longer together...
we used to...
"eh, paham tak, tadi nampak baju tu bla bla..."
and we're really really excited
and i can't share the excitement anymore...
poor me...

the restaurant, our favorite restaurant
our favorite food...

but...

i know ppl out there will feel sick, and ppl will say i'm a loser
i'm a freak or watever
i dun like ppl to tell me they know how i feel
dun tell me that, coz u won't understand, u won't know...

it's not easy and it's hard... very hard
to re-adjust ur life...
for more than 3 years he always there...
to share, to talk to, to laugh with, to cry on...
it's not easy ppl... it's not easy...

surprisingly, day by day, it's hurting me more and more...
it's bleeding deeper and deeper...

racun bisa meresap dalam hati...
lama2 akan jadi busuk
tiada erti nya lagi...
i can't feel my heart again...
i juz dun have the heart to do watever things...
watever i do is because work commitment
if its not bcoz of work
i'm so prefer to stay at home
and undergo my football therapy
let it be repeat games
who cares, its helping me...
it's the only thing that i can do to make me feel close to him
and reading all the cards he sent to me, the e-mails, the smses, the voice record
the pictures, our albums,
even i can just stare his name and mobile no at my hp screen...

you guys sick of me?
just change the url and go to other website
my blog my say...

If it's not happy ending, it's not the end

2007-12-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

hola...

k, lambat...
congrats dear, u win again...
4-0 against Bolton...

Bolton kalahkan Man-U 1-0
Liverpool kalahkan Bolton 4-0
= Liverpool lagi terer dari Man-U...

booo Man-U, haha...

ok so, gerrard assisted all 3 goals and scored a penalty...
u're great dear, i love you...
u put up a smile all over my face...

i smsed/ tried to call u thru out the game
but i gez u still don't wanna talk to me
i dun understand, i simply dun know why...
God, help me...
give me strength...

i took time-off today
one whole day...!
hehe...
juzt to take a break
only today i'm allowed
coz after this, my schedule will be very tight...
busy...
gosh...

but gez what i do today?
woke up at 4.30am
watched Man-U vs Fulham
f*** Man-U won... but that's bcoz double R was playing
see, they depend on this two fools
not like Liverpool, if there's no Torres, we have Crouch
we have Babel, Benayoun, Voronin, Kuyt...
and Gerrard of course, hehe
and Mascherano, your favorite...

ok the, i sleep and woke up ard 1...
freshen up, went to Umi Dah's place for lunch
watched Resident Evil 3 and i fell asleep towards e end
went back home, bought all chocolatey food...
ate again, fell asleep again
wake up ard 9.30pm
ate my dinner and watch G&G
then my sis was like spotting me...

"kak zai bangun, makan, tido, bangun, makan, tido, bangun, makan tido..."
err... iyyyaaa...
hahaha...
did i waste my holiday?
NO...
this is what i like to do...
Tido, Makan, Tido, Makan...
aku punye suke laa...
hehe...

anyway...
me, sis, bro and mother
watched OM SHANTI OM at Jurong East Entertainment
last night at 8.45pm...
Running time: 2hrs 45 mins
my first time watching Hindi movie at cinema
and gez...

it's a GREAT movie...
interesting, fun, entertaining...
serious best giler
i dun mind spending my money to watch it again...
and for sure i'll buy the vcd later...

its about reincarnation, rebirth...
incompleted love, seventies
melodramatic son and mother...

and i like this...

"If it's not happy ending, it's not the end..."

i miss you...

Finally... i found you!

2007-12-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

"Di mana letak syurga itu

Biar ku gantikan tempatmu dengan ku

Adakah tangga syurga itu

Biar ku temukan tempatmu dgn ku..."

Hi everyone!

i'm bushed...

ok, since monday balek malam

siapkan keje yg tak abes2...

Kem registration melimpah ruah

byk betol duit org kite eh...

ade yg antar bukan satu dua

tapi up to 6 pax!

walliau leh...

then thursday is the only chance balik cepat

but then, my mum suroh temankan pergi giant

beli barang2 utk kenduri on friday...

on friday paginya pergo Job Fair kat Jurong Entertainment

Mdm Halimah is the guest-of-honor...

balik ofis siap2kan keje

then start kul 3pm ade pre-camp...

sambil siap2kan write-up for carnival

pkl 6 pak usop nye kenduri haji...

kul 9pm bus sampai pergi sentosa

utk familiarization games and activites with the facilitators...

do the night walking and amazing race

then sampai BBE kul 12+

da mandi sume, ingat nak tido

then write-up lagi 6 blom abes kan...

budak2 sume ade yg main game laa, kat jaming room, bebual2...

i was so tired at that time

lagi pikirkan ade carnival at 4pm...

kul 4.30 in the morning

da menggigil tak bleh angkat, drag pun tak bleh...

teros ajak ziezy tido...

then tido lah dalam ofis

nasib muat dua org...

nasib ade sleeping bag

punelah sejuk nak mampos

padahal tak bukak air-con pun...

then i told ziezy

dun bother to wake me up

and pls dun wake me up

pasal die kene bgn awal

kul 9am ade carnival kat kampong melayu

paham tak? in one day kite ade 2 carnivals

kat Bukit Batok is Kampong Days Showcase carnival

kat Malay Village ade sales

so Youth Hub kat Bukit Batok

Gen-Y kat Malay Village

tapi nak tak nak tersadar2 jgk...

nak kunci la, duit la...

at last i woke up at 9...

then sambung buat write-up

10 posters of traditional games

our booth is all about traditioal games

and we decorate it mcm rumah kat tepi pantai...

backdrop die gambar tepi laut, pokok kelapa, rumah kampong

then ade pasir sume

jala, hammock, kain batik/pelekat...

the boys pakai baju silat

then the girls pakai baju opah and kain batik

style kan? hehe...

mmg kite punye booth yg paling semangat

ade gasing, bola tin, capteh, layang2, sepak raga, congkak, batu serembat...

ramai lah jugak yang main

even Madam pun main, hehe...

wrap up, pack kul 10 gitu...

sampai umah kul 11 gitu...

lepak sia...

lepak giler, tapi sempat singgah kedai kopi kat belakang

dgn si fikri sekali...

my mum datang the showcase dgn umi Dah sume bwk si fikri sekali

then si fikri ak sgt 100 plus

kite suro die g order sendiri

die pergi kat apek tu

die cakap...

"uncle, 100 plus satu...!"

haha... how cute...

balik lepaaaakkk terussss...

k lah, jap agi liverpool nye game

btw tadi g beli nie....

how's that? tebuka juga akhirnya hatiku utk membeli mu...

Mrs Gerrardinho...

this one my sis punye...

my collection except for the short sleeve one...

Liverpool 4 Porto 1

2007-11-29T09:37:00.000+08:00

i love gerrard like so much
i told my sis dat i want him to convert
so that i can marry him
doesn't matter how the person he really is
i just want to marry him
and bring me to Anfield
so i can build my new life there with him
far...
far...
away from here...

hey! i love liverpool too...
so happy this morning coz they won
they won a do-or-die match this morning

that's why i'm very sleepy right now
i slept for only 3 hours?
the match started at 3.45am
so i slept ard 12am
remind my sis to wake me up, set alarm...
then when the game starts, i'm so very the sleepy...
i dozed off for the first 10 mins and i dreamt that liverpool scored 1
by gerrard... haha...
tapi mimpi mapek sey...
liverpool nye jersey ade due kaler at the same match
then 2nd half main kat shopping centre
risse dapat free kick
die tendang ah
sekali tu goalpost die automatic sliding door
and can't detect the ball so the ball can't go in
keeper save ah
mapek kan
haha...

terus kuatkan mata
tengok screen t.v...
and thank God Torres scored!
18th min...
bile die score je terus segar semacam...

then bile Porto equalized
like ooouucchhh! cane nie?
liverpool kene menang...
tapi selamat the other game Besiktas tgh leading
so tak pressure sgt...

masok 2nd half
Torres score lagi!
bestnye...
and i was like lompat sorg2 mcm monyet
nur da tetido..
nak pekik tak boleh
takot sume org bangun
paham tak perasaan org tak boleh pekik bile excited
lompat2 je la all the way...

rasa mcm nak ref stop the game je
da tak bleh tahan da...
takot...

sekali tu kejap lagi
liverpool dapat penalty daa...
pasal Porto player touch the ball in the penalty box
(tapi actually foul by liverpool player tau, oooppsss)

GERRARDDDDD!!! HE SCORED! HE DID IT AGAIN
time die nak amek penalty tu i was like mesti tak goal nie
sorry love for not trusting you...
hehe...
but deep in my heart i know u will score...
hehe...

then, Crouch add one more goal...
waa... si crouch nie asik score je tau
good good, keep it up!

Final score Liverpool 4 Porto 1

next match against Marseille
Liverpool MUST win...
Ya Allah semoga Liverpool menang, Ameennn...

yesterday, balek mlm...
i don't wait for others coz i really have to go or else
i'm scared if i finally cry in front of them
i can't afford to control my tears
wen i walked out of the office
tears rolling down my cheek
why u do this to me?
why?
then i took a cab and i cried and cried
i feel so hurts...
then i thought of running away
or... ok gone for holiday
ok zai, next pay simpan duit k
after Kem Perkasa
i wanna take a break
and go far far away from here...
i need to heal myself...
only me can heal my own self...

Mengapa yang lain bisa
Bercinta dengan mudahnya
Namun kita terbelenggu
Dalam ikatan tanpa cinta...

Atas Nama Cinta

2007-11-28T16:05:00.000+08:00

Aku wanita yang punya cinta di hati
Dan dirimu dan dirinya dalam hidupku
Mengapa terlambat cintamu telah termiliki
Sedang diriku dengan dia tak begitu cinta

Mengapa yang lain bisa
Mendua dengan mudahnya
Namun kita terbelenggu
Dalam ikatan tanpa cinta

Atas nama cinta
Hati ini tak mungkin terbagi
Sampai nanti bila aku mati
Cinta ini hanya untuk engkau

Atas nama cinta
kurelakan jalanku merana
Asal engkau akhirnya denganku
Kubersumpah atas nama cinta

Haiz... what a nice song
the right song at the right moment
see the clip

p/s:
- tak jadi amek half day, too many to settle can't afford to delay it till tomorrow
- skrg sorg2 kat ofis dah lah ujan lebat, lepas tu ade cicak kat tingkap
- maseh sorg kat ofis blom makan, tak tau nak makan ape
- da telan panadol, skrg rasa ngantok yang amat
(makanan wajib everyday, 2 biji panadol pagi & 2 biji malam)
- k dah, sekarang g tekan play button, tgk muka rossa sambil nyanyi sama2

Open your eyes

2007-11-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

hi everyone....
uuhh... i'm struggling...
struggling myself to type, watch the screen, the keyboard...
ok
to open my eyes...

tons of works
papers scattered around my desk
files i dumped on the floor...
too many things to do at one time
but then when there's too many important things
u always end up doing the non important one
or like myself end up... termenung kjap tadi

like wat i supposed to do eh?
suddenly my head blank...
can't picture anything
oh ya...
i can't open my eyes like normal
ziezy spot that my mata bengkak...
and actually from yesterday i sense sumting wrong with my eyes
kelopak mata plus kening terus sampai ke kepala
sakit giler
it's like wen i touch dem, sakit!
cam bengkak gitu ah
why ah?
kepala nak pecah nie...

mmm... tapi sempat memblog
juz wanna take a break for a while
da beberapa hari masuk ofis terus buat kerja
sampai malam
da 2 hari i skipped my brunch and lunch

oh god...
its so painful!!!
i wanna take half day la
can or not...?

oouuuccchhh...

p/s: tomoro at 3am, Liverpool vs Porto
wish u luck gerrard
love u...

Football Therapy

2007-11-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

i woke up in the morning
and i realized that sumting wrong with my head
sumting wrong...
oouuuccchhhhhh...
sakitnye...
mcm ade batu besar kat dalam my kepala
or is it inside my brain?

sakit sgt...
mata kanan berair je
terus ke hidung
there goes...
ingatkan da baik
sekali tu maseh sakit...
more than a week already...

pergi doctorlah zai...

eh, fikri...
isy bdk nie, pkai sluar dalam je... hehe
haha...

gez what he said to me?
he whispered to me and said...

"main game nampak, main game nampak..."
haha...

aik, die amek liverpool nye scarf
and pegang mcm kat stadium gitu...
aiyya... salah match lah fik...
kite tgh tgk everton vs sunderland...
bukan liverpool nye match...

hehe... coz smlm tgk newcastle vs liverpool
die nie pun ade
then i smgt pkai scarf kat bahu...

sakit2 stress2 bleh tgk bola eh...
tell u what
football is my best therapy ever
bcoz i'm too engrossed with the match
it makes me escape from this world
to my own world
not to think of other things...
juz to escape from the real world...
to escape from u-know-what...
so here i'm watching a repeat
though i knew the score
7-1... wow! hehe...

aarrgghhh... this nose irritates me...
ok... half of my body
from my head sampai my arm
lemah, sakit...
aduhhh...
i can't stay this way
there are too many things to settle within next week...

- NUR registrations -105 cases to be done! -due on wednesday
- Kenduri and 2nd recce + overnight -on friday
- Kg days carnival and kampong melayu carnival -on saturday
- beli brg2 for Kem Perkasa and Kg Days carnival -to be done before thursday
- Kem Perkasa registrations

and with my brain like dis!
with my condition
physically and emotionally

i need a break, i need a holiday
i wanna travel
out from here
to sumwhere around europe...
ok england
ok london
ok anfield
then germany
then sweden
bestnye...

i'm happy, liverpool menang lagi...
yeahhh!
love u gerrard...
he scored the first goal
and assisted the other two...
i'm happy...

then man-u kalah...
huhu... bestnye...
tapi arsenal, chelsea, man city mng...
ceh! menyampah...

takpe2...
btw, da beli da jaket tu...
hehe...
then i bought liverpool 2008 calender
and towel

nak beli bedsheet plak ah nx pay
haha...

mmm...
it's ok if u don't reply my calls and smses
it's ok if u don't call and sms me
dun worry if u're online
i won't im u...
i won't
dun be afraid of me k...
juz go on with ur happy life
i'm fine here...

i won't disturb u anymore
that's my promise...
because u choose this
u want us to be like this right?

hey, u'r online!
how excited i am to see ur name at the right bottom of my screen
but dun worry
i won't disturb u k...

i won't
i won't
i won't

like avril says...

I'M BETTER OFF ALONE ANYWAY...

One Horrible Nightmare

2007-11-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm...
u said u forgive me
but i gez u don't...
my calls u ignore
my smses u don't care

every hour dials ur number
juz to check out how u do over there
are u ok?
are u alrite?
have u eat? have u sleep? have u rest?

how's ur work?
how's ur college?
how's ur school?
how's ur students?
how's ur assignment?
how's ur place?
does it rain everyday? flooded?

u take care k
i will pray for u from here...
i always think about u
i always remember all the things that u said

if u don't want to talk to me
that's fine
i'm ok...

i can talk to u, still...
in my dreams...
and ya! u remember that u recorded ur voice
in my samsung hp
las year, mmm... few days before raye?

ya... i hear that voice record like every night
more like a lullaby
or a bed time story
juz to feel that u'r there with me
before i close my eyes
coz i'm afraid that
wat if tomoro never comes

KAL HO NA HO

then i don't want to miss the last chance
to hear ur voice...
ur voice that always soothes me
always told me that everything will be ok
though sumtimes i know it won't be ok

oh god... i miss u...

please tell me that this is all a dream
a horrible nightmare...

juz one horrible nightmare...

i'm sick, still sick
ppl around me told me that
i should see a doctor
or juz rest at home

my nose irritates me
my throat sore
my head spins

i hate my life
i hate my life
i hate my life
i hate my life

hey! hey!
dun say that
dun say that he ruined my life
or i give up my life bcoz of a guy?
dun tell me that!

he is my life!
he is my life!
he is my life!

R21

2007-11-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

i'm sick
can feel the virus all over my body
my face, my nose, my eyes, my mouth, my throat
my shoulder, my neck, my back, my hand
my knee, my thigh, my feet...
my tummy always grumbling
hungry and wanna puke
coz i don't eat well...

i hate dis
i wanna go out with ma sis to peninsula later
we see how laa...

anyway, yesterday me, ziezy and nafis
watched Saw 4...
tell u guys, it was such a disgusting movie
no wonder rated R21
and so the journey begins...

ziezy and nafis were unsure at first
whether to watch it or not...
coz they are only 20 years old...
and i was like, buat bodoh je lah
die tak mintak ic punye...
(never watch R21 movie before, so dun know the rules,
or u can say that saje je nak deny the rules, haha)

then i called GV booking line,
book for 1910hrs show at Vivo City
but we're late! we went out from Gen-Y at 1815hrs
we're supposed to be there half hour earlier to collect the ticket...
so, we took a cab
and like asked the cab driver to drive faster
he nodded but...
haiz... takpelah...
biar aku je yg drive
peh lembab!!!!!!!!!

sampai vivo terus lari pergi GV...
beratur kat booking line
sekali tu...

"Sorry mdm, u'r late... we sold ur tixs already..."
so i asked him, are there any seats left?
luckily there are and right at the centre
and he allowed me to purchase it there
without asking me to line up at the other line (wat a line!)
and without charging me the booking fee... hehe...

bought nachos and popcorn...
mcm2 doa baca bile nak masok...
ziezy purposely pkai heels and dress
mcm kakak2 baru balek ofis gitu
while me in jeans and sweatshirt
(doesn't matter coz i have an id)
nafis! problem... da lah muke mcm budak2...
susah btol nak men-tuakan die...

we planned that kalau die mintak id
cakap tertinggal kat kereta...
sekali 3 org pulak tu yang jage...
1 pompan melayu, 2 lelaki melayu...

melayu...! tolonglah melayu!

we can almost heard our hearts thumping!

i can never be able to lie without
LIAR written at my forehead...

i choose the pompan melayu...
here we goes...

*sraaaap* she tore the tickets and hand me the other half
and she asked
"i'm sorry but i have to look at ur id..."

i move to the side and start to search for my wallet
ziezy and nafis were like
"alamak... teringgal dlm kereta....!"
she checked mine and said ok
then she told ziezy and nafis
"i'm sorry but u still have to show us ur id"

then lelaki melayu tu tanye kenapa...
then asked cerite ape
then he asked their age...
ziezy - 22
nafis - 21
ya rite!
haha

(FYI, tickets sold are not returnable)

then the guy said...
"takpelah biar dorg masok"
the girl: " boleh?"
the guy: "takpe, ape2 aku jawab..."
the girl: "ok, ko jawab...."

thank God!
we thank the guy...
and jalan selaju2nya tak nak pandang belakang...
haha...
mane lah tahu dorg tukar pikiran...
hehe...

lagipun, i guess lelaki tu kasi masok coz the movie rated R21
because of violence elements in it, not sexual contents etc...
hehe...

selamat... hehe...

penat ah, pening...
nanti ah update...
bye......

Hurt

2007-11-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you
but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

One Week

2007-11-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

one week...
not like i don't try...
i tried... trying...
but...
ok, i called, tried to call yesterday - twice
juz now -thrice or maybe more than that...
but, no respond..

i called him yesterday coz i wanna tell him that
finally, his card arrived!
oh God! thanks!
its a huge card!
no wonder it took more than a month
hahaha...
dabes raye baru dapat...
but that doesn't matter...

i was lying on the bed
when my sister streched her hand and pass it to me...
and i was like speechless!
and excited of coz...
dari ngantok teros tak...
nak bukak kad tangan menggigil...
then...

haiz...

the words...

i was too excited that i forgot that
we're no longer together
i juz grabbed my phone and called him
no answer...
wen i tried again then i remember that
why did i call him?
though i know he won't pick it up
isn't that hurt me more?
then why i did it?

i want to tell him that isn't it miracle
that everytime we sent cards for each other
the phrases, the words written
were always the answers that we're looking for....?

for example...

i wrote: this is our 4th hari raya together, rite?
he wrote: do u realize that this is our 4th hari raya together

i wrote: this year i can't get to do hari raya shopping with u, u can't choose my heels...
he wrote: i still remember we did our hari raya shopping together, i choose ur heels..

well, there's a lot...

but... i realized that, i can never share with him anymore...

i read and read the card again...
i can almost hear his voice reading the card for me...
tears rolling down my cheeks...
i hug the card tight...close my eyes...
remember the days and nites with him...
remember the smiles, laughters, tears...

i put the card back
scared it will get crumpled...
close my eyes try to sleep...
but i can't...

then today went sucks
i just can't talk, smile, respond to people...
i was in a daze all day...
i can't laugh at people jokes...
i even lose my appetite...
i juz eat for the sake of energy

and i feel sick, migraine struck, dizziness...
feel like to puke...
i juz want to delete everyone i met
and put it inside the recycle bin
at the mrt, interchange, everywhere
then delete it again
so that i can't restore them...

all i wish for rite now...
to talk to him
for one last time...

and also
i... i don't expext that i can get back to normal tomoro
i juz want to be able to hold on
i feel bad if the youths sense sumting
or afraid of me coz of my mood swings
i don't want to potray it
i'm not potraying it
i juz can't be myself...

God, please show me ways...
help me God...

Please Forgive Me

2007-11-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I wanna love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should ...

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me (Oh believe it), every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
Still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all the moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do

The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying

Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
I can't stop ... loving you ...

If u'r happened to read my blog
please know that this song is for u
no other word can i say

as we always said
it's More than Words

Please Forgive Me...

5 days

2007-11-13T11:32:00.000+08:00

5 days...
gosh... i don't believe it...
i tot it juz a small, normal thing...
but i gez...
bende kecik da jadi besar...

wat shuld i do?
i can't concentrate on my work...
aaaaaaarggghh!

takde mood laa...
binget nyeeeeeeeeeee...............
nak balek
tido
tak payah bgn
senang kan?
tak menyusahkan org...

benci..............................................................
i hate dis feeling
i hate it!

YNWA

2007-11-11T04:02:00.000+08:00

congrats liverpool!

for both matches last tuesday and early this morning...

crushed Besiktas by 8 goals - nil

champions league record...!

and wat a match! i like it...

everything seems to move in a perfect way...

then this morning, 2-0 against Fulham...

great ball possesions, great shots, great chances created, great ideas...

but also great goalkeeping from Fulham

but poor passes made by liverpool, like always, ufff!

but still great match but again hard to score...

why is it so hard for liverpool to put the ball inside the net?

why?

Barclays matches i mean...

great start of the season but suddenly went down

fortunately, still unbeatable...

from my observation we need Torres and Alonso to score...

we have great captain, Gerrard the playmaker

Voronin goal creator

Mascherano good midfielder

Carragher the great tanker...

but still it was hard to score...

we need scorer...

we have everything

great keeper, defender, midfielder, striker...

scorer... haiz... maybe no luck?

well... maybe...

watever it is...

credits to all liverpool players...

they improved so much dis week...

i love you...

enuff of football...

my previous entry i said about

feel to be loved and have a boyfren

bla bla bla...

ok tu semua saje nak menghiburkan hati yang sedang...

membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi

membuatku merasakan yang tak terjadi

semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati

semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri...

salah aku ke?

i don't know...

last sms received thursday night

i dun know wat went wrong...

aku yang salah cakap?

atau die yang salah anggap?

arrrggghhhh!

i apologized, even though i still dun know wat went wrong

still, no news from him...

why dun u try sms and call him again?

we're supposed to watch Liverpool vs Fulham together juz now

we always watch liverpool matches together

but tonight...

i doubt so but if u are reading dis

juz want u to know that i'm sorry...

i dun know what it is

but please accept my apology

please understand carefully my sms

please understand my situation

10 months without ur smile...

yes i'm still in one piece

but with only half of the heart

because u took another half of it...

i know, i know

we're NOT meant for each other...

i don't expect miracles to happen...

i don't want u to break up with her...

i still want u in ur relationship with her

why?

because i know u'r happy with her

both of u are MEANT to be together

all i want is for u to be happy...

mabe you'll be happier

WITHOUT me...

well, think about it...

then, why do i still have the feelings?

there's one lecturer told me this...

"True love is to give

& not expecting anything in return"

he may not has the feeling

but that doesn't matter

i still do... always...

so...

i'm down again...

i had another argument

with diff person of course

life is unfair to me lately

i tried ok... i'm trying my best

but still...

i can't elaborate it further

it's too personal

it's affected me emotionally

feel like to give up my life

why? why me? why not...

why i'm the one to be blame...

why can't u be more democratic...

why u hate me?

i'm a black sheep...

rite now i need u abg

but guess i can only talk to u in my dreams

coz we're not in speaking term at the moment

wat a luck!

great... thanks...

haiz...

i need to talk...

to sumone...

mmm...

my best, man, fren in all the land is in trouble

and i feel bad coz i can't help...

and i can't interrupt...

how eh? what to do...?

i hope everything goes well

i'll pray for him...

he has my shoulder to cry on...

dun worry, i'll be there for him

like he always do... :)

ok zai

life has to move on...

last sunday bought a new adidas bag... (again...)

haha... its a huge bag for travelling or beach-ing

and before that

guess i haven't tell this one

bought new adidas handbag... last month i think...

kan da bilang, sebulan sekali kene beli

kalau tak nanti kene rashes, haha...

later i post the pics k...

so, next on the list

i saw it at Vivo and Citylink adidas boutique...

i know... i know... (",)

Why Do Boys Fall in Love With Girls?

2007-11-10T09:56:00.000+08:00

hai, this was posted by An at Friendster Bulletin
and i found it so sweeetttt...
ya ya... i may not have a boyfriend to share with
so i guess i share it with u...
because i can't stop smiling wen i read dis
feel like i'm in love...
with him...
who?
whoever it is but its a Him
like duuhhhh~~~
i know there's someone out there for me...
tapi jodoh blom ade...
i don't know, but rite now
i juz want a boyfriend, not to love
but to be loved
selfish huh?
haha...
or desperate?
haha...
no laa... saje je nak berase bercinta sekarang nie
bleh g dating, bleh ade sumone yg melayan, haha
desperate naa zai...

eh, i recalled my conversation with Seri
there's one wen we still at Mahallah Halimah
we used to talk like about anything
and we kind had the same thought on relationship...

we were like agreed that
if one day we're in a relationship
we want it to be this way...

- tak jumpe hari2... maybe like once a month (though stay in a same country)
- call seminggu sekali
- sms 3 hari sekali

in another word: tak yah nak report streng (eh, how to spell ah?)
isn't it sweet and romantic wen out of a sudden he call
then bile dapat sms tu we like appreciate it so much
coz sekali sekala dapat...
bile nak jumpe to we're so looking forward
and tak nak waste the precious moment by bertengkar...

we think we will appreciate our guy this way much better
furthermoe kalau asik jumpe nanti

- cepat boring
- mulalah nak cari gaduh
- wen things not in the usual way, we tend to be very suspicious

nanti bile da kawen nanti baru lah rase kenikmatannye... kan?

how's that?
so, any takers?
hahaha...
aku merepek...
seri ingat tak?
hehe...
don't get me wrong, i'm NOT desperate...
aku nye blog, aku nye suke ah nak ckp ape...
haha...
i'm happy anyway...

eh drag sey...
k below is the bulletin that An posted at Frenster
enjoy~~~

WHY DO BOYS FALL IN LOVE WITH GIRLS?

(This was written by a guy)

Don't break this; it's so sweet!

1. They will always smell good even if it's just shampoo.
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in theworld.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth.
11 . How cute they are when they argue.
12 . The way her hand always finds yours.
13. The way they smile.
14 . The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you just had a big fight.
15 . The way she says "lets not fight anymore" - even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way that they kiss after you have had a fight.
17 . The way they kiss you when yousay "I love you".
18. Actually...Just the way they kiss you...
19 . The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.
21 . The way they hit you and expect it to hurt. * i think everygirl is guilty of this :)
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt (even though wedon' t admit it).
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...

Yet irregardless if you love them,
hate them, wish they would die
or know that you would die without them...
it matters not...

Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world they become everything to you...
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to the depths of their souls
and you say a million things without trace of a sound,
you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart...

We love them for a million reasons,
no paper would do it justice...
It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart...

haizzz... how sweet! (",)

Gurindam Jiwa

2007-11-06T00:33:00.000+08:00

Tuai padi antara masak
Esok jangan layu-layuan
Intai kami antara nampak
Esok jangan rindu-rinduan

Anak cina pasang lukah
Lukah dipasang di tanjong jati
Didalam hati tidak ku lupa
Sebagai rambut bersimpul mati

Batang selasih permainan budak
Daun selasih dimakan kuda
Bercerai kasih talak tiada
Seribu tahun kembali jua

Burung merpati terbang seribu
Hinggap seekor di tengah laman
Hendak mati dihujung kuku
Hendak berkubur di tapak tangan

Kalau tuan mudik ke hulu
Carikan saya bunga kemboja
Kalau tuan mati dahulu
Nantikan saya di pintu Syurga...

Nape tetibe lagu nie eh
FYI i typed the lyrics
bukan copy paste eh
i memorized the lyrics...
some of u will not understand
sum will say boring, mendak...
but this song gimme sumting
its touched my heart
everytime i heard it

last sunday, at Sensasi
they showed the movie
and i was like sitting infront of the tv
tak berganjak pun
from start till end
i even watched the replay of the movie
haha...

the story was so beautifully written
the lyics like awwww...
Nordin Ahmad and Latifah Omar surely a perfect couple!
and their life is so peace, so loving, so sweet...
together kat sawah padi, tanam padi, jemur padi, tumbuk padi
bile malam when nordin ahmad (Dahlan) cari ilham tulis pantun
latifah omar (Dahlia) helps him, like a lot..
kirekan Dahlia is his inspiration
best kan...?

then bile dorg kene berpisah pasal Dahlan kene keje kat istana
Dahlia setia tunggu Dahlan
though adeorg nak jadi pengganti
Everynite Dahlia will read Gurindam Jiwa
that was written by both of them
bile die rindu je, die baca Gurindam Jiwa...
awwww.... so sweeeeeeetttt.....

i mean i can feel the love between them
the love that make them strong, stick together no matter what...
everything is possible...
i don't know how to describe it...
well... love can't be explain, can't be understood
it is one miracle God has bless us...
thanks God...

let's see...

Intai kami antara nampak
Esok jangan rindu-rinduan...

appreciate those ppl around you when they still around
wen they gone, tak gune nak menyesal...
isn't it beautiful...?
we always take for granted with ppl around us...
don't appreciate them
bile da takde baru rindu, baru ingat
kalau tak...

Didalam hati tidak ku lupa
Sebagai rambut bersimpul mati

i will NEVER forget you
rambut or anything else kalau da simpul mati
kan susah nak leraikan...
sama juge rindu di dalam hati ini...
cehhh!

Bercerai kasih talak tiada
Seribu tahun kembali jua

i love this verse a lot!
kalau putus kasih takde talak, tak macam nikah
putus ade talak, talak 3 da takleh together lagi
tapi kalau putus kasih, seribu tahun lagi pun masih boleh bertaut lagi
maksudnya kalau putus kasih takkan abes gitu aje
kasih sejati pasti ade dalam hati forever
anytime leh together balek...

Hendak mati dihujung kuku
Hendak berkubur di tapak tangan

also love this!
nak selalu bersama
sampai kalau salah satu mati sekali pun
nak mati di hujung kuku
nak berkubur kat tapak tangan
hujung kuku dan tapak tangan kan dekat
then bile kite genggam tangan kite
hujung kuku dgn tapak tangan kan da bersatu...
kire da mati pun still wanna be close together...
how sweet...

Kalau tuan mati dahulu
Nantikan saya di pintu Syurga

ok, nie direct, semua paham...

best kan...?

i am weird, i know...

Dead Blog Dead Me

2007-11-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

ok, i know... i know...
my blog is dead
coz i don't update
don't reply my loyal taggers...

ok ok...
sori guys... i know sum of u may wanna know sum update from me
but there's too many to talk about yet too little time...
actually there's time, it juz that...
i'm toooooooo tired to do anything else
except...
go to work, watch sinetrons, eat, sleep...

don't care to do anything fun
don't care about my hobby
don't bother about anything else
ya, i went to mall sometimes after work
all with reasons...
pay bills, buy toiletries...
of course, sempat window shopping...
hehe...
last thursday i think...
i went to Secret Recipe
coz i was... well, i still craving for Chocolate Banana cake!
and i bought the whole cake last saturday for Nur's birthday!
but guess my stupid sister deleted the pictures
of the beautiful Chocolate Banana cake...
(oopppsss... sori Nur)
i know its a plain cake
but they decorated it so nice for my sis...

ok so last saturday her birthday
i bought for her Heiress... Paris Hilton perfume
and a bear with a stalk of pink rose!
cut the cake with Fikri, Umi Dah's family, Bibik...
on Sunday went to Vivo
just a family day out
to celebrate my sis birthday
not much, just lunch at Banquet...
boring huh? belum mid of the month laa...
hahaha...
ok enuff of her...

oh Selamat Hari Raya...
haha...
lame... lambat... lembab... ketinggalan zaman...
to be frank, this year
was the boringest Hari Raya ever!
da la baju tak siap
kene beli baju kat geylang kat bazar punye
eeiii... so not me...!
eh wait, bukan aksyen ke ape...
bukan pasal my baju mahal2 ke ape...
it juz that, kite da plan kan nak pkai baju ape
pattern ape...
tapi end up tak siap...
betapa sakitnye hati...
plan nak pkai pink, tapi jadi black n white la pulak...
ade org tu kate mcm batu2 kat tepi jalan tu, itam putih...
kong asam...! hehe...

lagipun, tak dapat kad dari my dearest abg...
uwaaaaahhh...
sampai sekarang kad raye tak sampai2...
posman buang ke ape?!!
i don't care i still want the card
tak sama card takpe asalkan same words, fonts...
and ape2 yang da ditulis...
i miss the moment i read hari raya card last year
kat dalam bas express nak balik singapore...
the bus that fetch us from IIUM...
a night full of happiness and tears
happy coz i will meet my family
tears coz i had to be apart from him...
the journey was too peaceful
with tears keep rolling on my cheeks
(without other ppl know, luckily the bus was very dark)
keep reading the words in the cards...
the feeling that i missed...
i want that feeling to come again to my life...
paint my life with colors...
tears, happiness, jokes, frustrated moments
loving, missing, anger, cloud nine...

hate him coz he hurts you
love him coz he always there for u
miss him wen apart
feverish to meet him
gone crazy wen he's away...

ok2...
draaagggg...

ape lagi eh pasal raye?
oh... yeah! first time kasi zakat kat budak2...
and my uncles and auties were like...
cepat salam kak zai, cepat salam...
haha...
actually paisey giler nak kasi dorg...
coz all eyes on u...
katekan first time hehe...

tapi, surprisingly, ade jgk org kasi me duit raye...
3 ppl... i refused but 2 of them insisted...
hehe... lagi malu, tapi nak! haha...

hari raya functions! dinners...
tell me about it...
i went to 3 dinners...
one at Lagunsari Restaurant (borriiiinnnggg...)
Suntec City (boring gak)
Bukit Batok East CC (haha pathetic place tapi ok2 ah... atleast fun and enjoyable)

beside that i only went out for 3 days
then that's it! end of hari raya...
takde mood ah...
though i got one week break
but i prefer to spend it by.... sleeping at home...
haha...
Month of Ramadhan was too exthausted for me...
well, i think i need to excercise moe
jogging maybe... and swimming!
i missed swimming... i love siwimming...
at swimming pool... bukan laut eh...
bile eh...
mmm...

i am not fit...
cepat penat... lesu...
tak macam dulu, aktif giler...
da tua ke...?
issyyy! takdelah...
haha...
k need more exercise...
aerobic will do, syyyy...!

ok again, i miss my IIUM friends so muchhhhhh...
nape takde jalan raye tahun nie...
tertunggu2 lah juge...
senyap je sume...
and i missed ASSIIUM punye jalan raye!
i read my e-mail one week after raye
then rupenye ade jalan raye... aaarrrgggghhh!!!

ok2 enuff of Hari Raya...

lets talk about work!
its getting tougher and tougher...
i don't know how to say it
let say that when u'r not working at your own field
u have to work harder and smarter
to strike and score...
bloody stress and frustrating...!
frustrating because u can't perform...
its affected me emotionally...
for real...

i got no knowledge no experience in this
i hope for guidance from the expert
courses available...
ok there's 2 courses for me this months
can't wait!

hey, i love my job...
i have to endure, work harder, willing to learn, ask more...

eh, actually nk bebual psl bende lain tau...
tetibe lupe...
arrggghhh...

i try to update my blog everyday
well yunn i still can't understand why mine is ur fav blog...
u're being sarcastic isn't it? hehe...

i'm a walking zombie, dead...

I'm Happy...

2007-10-09T13:11:00.000+08:00

My previous entry i wrote a song from ungu...
ok i kinda late but i jus knew it from Nur...
it was beautifully written, i mean the lyric was like...
PERFECT...
never in my life find such a song....
wait till u watch the video...
sedih giler oohhh...

FYI, this song is not for the love couples out there...
sorry uh...
it is for those who in love
with someone who are not meant for them....
i got goose bumps when i watched this video....

ok2... nothing much to say...
beginning of this week seems ok...
i'm happy...
(",)

well... hikmah 2 yesterday punye lah sedih...
(ceh! saje nak rhyme)
i mean the way adrian regret on what he did to Ana...
i mean that situation remind me of a moment....
a moment... a matter of life and death... serious...

me and asfi applied to extend our hari raya holiday till end of next week...
dpt ke tak eh...
dapat ah...
plsss....
i need a break...
we need a break...
hehe...

malas plak nak update lagi...
sakit tengkok... tampal koyok...
(rhyme lagi...) hehe...

Kekasih Gelapku

2007-10-09T12:58:00.000+08:00

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang kucari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku
Hidupku…

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Pulanglah... Sayang...

2007-10-06T12:20:00.000+08:00

Sayang... Di hari yang mulia ini
Ku pohon keampunan
Hanya satu yang ku pinta
Pulanglah...

Termenung ku sendiri
Memendam rindu tidak menentu
Kasih suci murni yang kita bina
Hapus hancur oleh kata fitnah

Di pagi hari raya
Hati sayu mengenang dirimu
Mudahnya kau menggantikan diriku
Seolah cintaku tak berharga...

Apakah suratan
Aidilfitri satu titik akhir
Sekian lama bercinta
Kau tiada di hari mulia...

Keampunan ku pohon
Sekiranya aku yang berdosa
Pulanglah ku merindui mu sayang
Ku menanti dengan hati rela...

Pulanglah kepangkuan ku oh sayang
Ku menunggu mu di hari raya...

Evil Character

2007-10-05T16:54:00.000+08:00

i hate someone...
why?
eh, suke hati aku lah aku nye blog...

am i being hypocrite?
but i can't just stop feeling menyampah tahap maut
ko pk ko sorg je bagus?
sum ppl juz like that
suke cari kelemahan org dan menjatuhkan org

I HATE YOU...

yes u...
asal perasan? kalau bukan kau jgn perasan lah sey...
menyampah sia...
step die sorg aje yg hidop kat dunia nie...

jalan2 terjumpe bangla...
eh bole blaaaahh...!

nak g iftar jamaie kat Makan House Restaurant...
dgn seluruh bdk2 Gen-Y
ard 40+...
kompom kecoh...

tak buka kat rumah lagi...
hmm... penat ah...
i need a break
i wanna sleep...
i wanna forget everything that bothering me rite now...

i wanna sleep for 2 days tak bangun2...
bleh...?

bleh je... tak bangun terus pun boleh...
tapi blom tibe masanya... like my mum always said...

btw, baca blog seri tadi...
pasal all the dramas...

yes! i agreed pasal si Lisa tu benging, bitch, mcm da takde jalan lain
nak pikat laki org just bcoz nak duduk kat jakarta...
belo!!!
si Adrian pun bodoh, nak post duit, surat da tak tahu nak post sendiri
lagipun tu kan bini kau sey...
takkan tak yakin dgn bini sendiri
lain la kalau Ana sendiri yang ckp...
mapek sey jantan...
si Ana da pandai sikit, si Adrian plak jadi bengong...

selamat ade Eva... tahu die jahat...
but i liiiikkkeee her...
she's so pretty...
i mean muke jahat, marah, selenge, takot...
tetap sentiase lawa...
lagipun die nye jahat tak se irritating si lisa yang ufff!
malas nak cakap...

tapi Seri... Janji Diana aku tak suke si Diana tu...
sikit2 nak ngamuk... pe saje ntah...
ngamuk je marah kawan, tgglkan kawan...
bila sedih kawan tu jugak yang die cari...
macam menyampah dgn perangai die...
mak tiri die aku suke...
jahat... haha...

aku suke watak org jahat...
tapi tak suke mak tiri die sejak die ade affair dgn driver die...
eeeiiii! geli! i wanna puke...

aku suke watak jahat tapi aku tak suke perampas! main kayu tiga!
jahanamkan rumah tangga org...
kalau bitch ok2 ah...
hehe...

nape aku suke watak jahat...
pasal realiti nak kene jadi baik kan...
so bile drama jahat la best...

haha...

zai mappeee...

jalan2 tertinggal selipar
aku da lapar...

rase nak makan megi
lagi 2 jam agi!

kueh baulu kueh tart
ok aku da penat...

apple pie banana pie
bye bye...

Ceh2... post entry 2 kali nampak...
post entry 2 kali nampak...

Paru Sambal

2007-10-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

i'm tired...
very tired...
tiry, tiredness, tiretiree... k mapekkk...

penat, kepenatan, keletihan yang keamatan...
kengantukkan, ketidak cukupan kerehatan...
k mapekkk...

da 2 mlm tak buka kat rumah...
da 2 malam balek lambat...
semalam balek kul 11mlm...
mlm nie tak tau plak...

anyway, nak reply suli nye tag...

yess!!! i missed those moments...
me, suli and dewi... g beli makan kat kantin hafsa
kul 6...
packed giler org...
kite pun menambahkan kepackedan...
amek 3 bungkus nasi...
now its time to hunt for the lauk!
hehe...

asam pedas ikan pari...
lauk ayam...
paru sambal! wajiibul ghunna...
ini kalau takde bleh jadi giler sekejap....
sedap nye paru sambal...
makan dengan nasi putih tkde lauk lain pun da ok...
naakkkk...

ape lagi eh? wedges...
wow! best giler...

balik bilek suli...
azan je terus ngap, sume senyap sey...
pasal nikmat naa berbuka malam tu...
yelah... anak di perantauan tak dapat buka kat rumah
tak dapat makan masakan umi...
lagi2 org2 yang jarang balik mcm aku nie...

and guess what...
kite buka... bebual... tgn tak cuci...
sampai isyak...
stop jap gi cuci sume then sambong bebual sampai sahur!
well, bukan sekali dua kali buat perangai nie...
tapi buruk kan?!!!
ade je topic nak bebual sampai tak sadar time...
hajat di hati selalu nak stay up same2 nak belajar
at last... hampey...
tapi ape je yg dibualkan tu...

ade jugak exam period...
still remember... besok paper pukul 9 pagi...
kul 3 pagi maseh sempat buat video klip raye...
haha...

selalu buat hal sey time exam period...
mesti ade je video klip...
superhero dance... sway...
hahaha...
best nye time kecik2 dulu...
hah? kecik?! hehe...
time belajar mmg best ah...
bleh main2... bleh malas2... bleh tido dlm kelas...
time keje... cube lah kau malas...

then rindu masak bubur pakai periuk nasi suli yg telah
digantikan dengan yang da meletup...
terer tu masak spaghetti pakai periuk nasi sampai meletop!
huahua...

sedapnye sahur makan bubur tarok ikan bilis sambal...

yummy...~~~

Seri... seribu kali kau cakap rindu...
sejuta kali aku nye rindu...
ceh! lain macam aje...
hehehe...

nak g uia...
nak buka kat hs...
nak sahur kat bilik suli...

mmm...

$1.30 Bus Fare

2007-10-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

wow... lame sey tak blog kat rumah...
knape eh nak blog tetibe?

mmm... i just came back pukul 10.30 tadi
buka kat luar dgn pak usop, kak yati and asfi
plus ade meeting sikit tadi...
abes ard 9.30, da penat...
tapi tak rase nak naik cab
(seperti selalunye mesti naik cab....
my duit byk abes kat cab!)
tadi rase nak naik bas je
one straight bus... 197...

and yes! i enjoyed my bus ride...
surprisingly i enjoyed a $1.30 fare more than
a $13.00 +++ fare!
i thought i overcome my "mabok bau taxi"
after byk kali naik taxi...
tapi tak! i still rase mabok and nak muntah!
lagi2 taxi premiere... ufff plsss...
mesti nak kene standby gule2...
tapi kalau bulan puase mcm mane?
hmmmm...

ok so, i took 197... duk sebelah tingkap
bukak mp3...
enjoying the view...
i like 197 nye journey...
lalu city hall, clarke quay, highway...
(ok, i adore highway...)

Era Farida jual apam,
ko tak paham, aku pun tak paham...
muahahahaha....

i mean, it's a pleasant journey... really...
bile bukak mp3...
lagu2 dari Peterpan yang berkumandang...
lame giler tak dengar...

first lagu...

"Bagai bintang di syurga
dan seluruh warna
dan kasih yang setia
dan cahaya nyata...

oh bintang disyurga
berikan cerita...
dan kasih yang setia
dan cahaya nyata..."

berdiri sia bulu roma dgr lagu nie...
feeling babe feeling...

then... came another song...

"kukatakan dengan indah
dengan terbuka
hatiku hampa...
sepertinya luka
menghampirinya...

kau beri rasa yang berbeza
mungkin ku salah...
mengartikannya...
yang ku rasa cinta...

tetapi hatiku...
terlalu meninggikanmu...
selalu meninggikanmu...
terlalu meninggikanmu...

kau hancurkan hatiku
hancurkan lagi
kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu

kau terangi jiwaku
redupkan lagi
kau hancurkan hatiku
tuk melihatmu....

membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
membuatku merasakan yang tak terjadi
semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri"

aaaahhhh... dis song...
really bring tears into my eyes
everytime i heard it...
even kat dalam bas tadi...

this song still "relevant" to me...
till now...

hah! teringat time kat uia dulu...
how i keep repeating dis song...
dis song give me strength...
dis song actually wake me up...

"wake me up... when september ends..."

i know the lyric is all about a heatbroken lover
searching for her right...
or u can say, confused what is exactly her right...
but... dis song somehow inspires me...

i know there's no point waiting for someone
who is uncertain...
but....

on the bus journey, i started to think...
i started to recall...
guess, all i can think of is
my days at uia...
specifically, ramadhan at uia...

there was a moment i WON'T forget...
me, seri and suli...
jalan nak g pasar lamam...
then instead of jalan thru bazaar ramadhan...
kite jalan thru foyer 3...
pasal bazaar packed with people...

sekali tu...

the scene that i always avoided...
always prayed in my heart...
everytime i stepped out of my room...
but it happened...

i saw him with her...
i mean... they walked together...
side by side...
with my own bloody eyes!
witnessed my seri and suli...
and immediately...
i feel pain in my heart...
like ouch!
we passed by...
and he don't even acknowledged me...
not even look at me...
and i was like...
speechlessss....
tears bursted... what else...

i recalled this incident in the bus...
i was like...
i've been thru all these pain and sorrow...
all these YEARS...
yet... i' still waiting, hoping...

1 million things can make me sad and frustrated...
but with only his presence, only one presence...
i came back to normal...
happily loving him and missing him...

but...
where is him now?! where?
where is him when i need him so much...?
when i wanna talk to him... when i wanna talk to sumone...

we promised to be with each other forever...
to always support one another...
he's someone to rely on...
a shoulder to cry on...
but where is him?!!!

"Kau terangi jiwaku...
kau redupkan lagi..."

ok he's busy...

but don't ignore me this way...

i feel like a fool...

whenever he wanna call me

even if i'm busy...

i texted him saying that i'm busy...

atleast i told him sumting...

but him?

senyap je... tanpe berita...

then tetibe muncul balik...

i feel like...

aarrrggghh! i don't wanna said that...

i'm sad...

k bye...

Tak leh Angkat beb!

2007-10-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

last friday went to Royal Plaza hotel...

iftar with all staff and mc members...

carousel...

tak lah best sgt...

ntah eh... i don't find the food really tempting...

except for the desert...

choc fountain... yummy~~~

jgn ckp ah, byk giler chocolate, sweet food aku bedal...

balik je... pening sia kepala...

really... sakit giler kepala...

tu lah... kn tak ingat dunia, hehe...

on saturday nothing much happened...

only that... i rebonded my hair, hahaha...

ingat nak buat purple streaks... nanti ah...

hehe...

question from my parents...

buat ape rebond rambut? kau kan pakai tudung...

well... i'm not only wanna look good, but to feel good...

hehehe... (",)

yayyy! liverpool menang akhirnye... yippeee!!!

1-0 pun jadilah, yg penting dpt 3 points...

thanks Benayoun...

torres was good also cuma takde nasib je...

good try...

sunday...

percaya ke tak...

gue pegi tgk wayang...

huh? puase2 tgk wayang?

tak bleh beli "fofcorn"...

hehe...

actually Gen-Y got 20 complimentary tickets

AGM cum Movie Screening...

at Eng Wah Cinema, west mall...

so, me and asfi

angkutlah the other 16 youths tgk crite...

"Underdog"....

the movie was hilarious...

really!

at first ingat mcm biase2 je...

tapi kakla laa...

hehe...

balik ingat nak g jp...

then sakit perut tak tahan...

balik terus tido sampai buke...

lepas buka pegi IKEA...

beli lampu... pokok x 15...

banyaknye...

nak letak kat ofis...

jual pokok kape...

hehehe...

balek tgk cerite "pawang putih pawang merah"

kat channel Sensasi...

bleh tahan... kelakar gak...

haha...

btw... i dapat 2nd kad raya...

from Masni dari kedah...

peh! jauhnye...

ya lah... i should send to all excos kan to keep in touch...

nanti nak beli laa...

eh, the 1st kad raye i dapat on the first day of puase lagi...

haha... asfi belo...

yeah... nak beli kad raye...

beli kad raye nampak... beli kad raye nampak...

hehe...

sakit perut ah....

aaaahhhh.... nak pengsan

k bye...

A FOOL IN LOVE WITH YOU...

2007-09-28T15:12:00.000+08:00

ok... i changed my blog song...
i heard dis song quite few months ago...
but i don't know why suddenly this song touched my heart...
deeply...
when i sang it together with Ezah, Mis and Hani
at the jamming room...

maybe coz i never try to sing this song before...
maybe the situation i feel rite now...

its been such a long time
i said "i miss you" to him...
but i don't know why...
out of a sudden...
i just said those words to him yesterday...
i don't know why...

then... suddenly he said that to me too...
out of a sudden... too...

this is so not us...
i mean...
i can't recall the last time i uttered those word to him...
it was always when he hung up then i said...

i miss you...

maybe on the month of ramadhan...
well... this is the first time we don't get to berbuka sama2...
i don't get the chance to wake him up for sahur...
i don't get the chance to go hari raya shopping with him...
God... i still remember bought 2 Vogue heels with him...
his choice...
he knows my taste...
he can tolerate with my "shopping madness, tantrum"...
he can tolerate with my hunger... haha...
serious! sum ppl feel that my hunger is annoying...
watever...

wen i sick he knows what should he buy for me...
the food that i always want
whenever i sick...
he tolerate with my PMS...
unpredictable mood...

he just know from A to Z about me...

i miss him...

after 4 ramadhans together...
everythings remain as memories...
memories that i never wrote it inside my blog...
i captured it in my heart...
i can still remember... till now...
still fresh...

aaarggghhh... i miss him...

its been... more than 7 months...
since we last met...
after more than 3 years we never been apart for this long...

aduuuuhhhh...
rindunye...
in 7 months of me searching that one love...
but i guess i can't lie to myself...

i tried... ya i got crush here and there...
but... hell no...
my heart just can't accept it...

my sister said i'm such a fool...
yes i'm a fool....

A FOOL IN LOVE WITH YOU....

When You're Gone................. :'(

2007-09-28T14:53:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you...

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you...

Convo-ed (Part 4)

2007-09-22T12:12:00.000+08:00

Monday 26th August 2007

My big day today...

takotnye...

bgn kul 5 pagi...

keluar kul 6 pagi...

by 7.30 mesti nak smpai

naik monorail - lrt - bas...

ape lagi kan...

cek tudung dulu...

muke takot kan? hehe...

kentalkan pakai tudung nie wat jalan2...

hehehe...

before masuk hall...

takoooot...

nie lah stage die, lawakan...

the best part is...

i'm the 2nd last group to go in

(total ade 28 groups)

so bile masuk tu, sume berdiri utk kite...

and my group duduk kat the 2nd row...

and gez what...

bdk2 fiqh are the first recipients...

hehehe...

best nye...

nie lah...

cari... mana me? hahaha...

tak lah takot sgt, coz ramai ade atas stage...

cume tkt kamera tk dpt capture muke je...

tapi dapat gak...

hehe...

then... i was searching for the 2nd cameraman

ingat nak pose...

sekali tu die da capture...

fewwiiittt... baju terselak...

the 2nd best part is...

we're the last to go in...

but we're the first to receive and get out...

yeayyyy~~~~

bile kluar tu kan

kat pintu disambut org2...

mcm kat airport!

kekek sia...

dah lah panas giler...

sempat lah jgk amek2 gambar...

my family...

kat hs...

Hs clans...

seri and me

me and dewi

tak kuasa sey nak amek kat luar...

nie je lah gambar yang mampu di amek

di bwh terik mentari...

cepat2 nak blah...

petangnye nak g photoshoot kat studio...

yeahhhhh~~~

sampai hotel, relax....

malam sambung shopping...

yeayyy~~~ alaa... bsok balik... blom puas holiday...

penat laa...

sume tido cepat, kepenatan...

lights off!

Convo-ed (part 3)

2007-09-05T14:02:00.000+08:00

Sunday 26th August

bgn kul 10... cepat lagi...

hehehe... holiday sebenarnye tak begitu holiday...

nak kene bgn cepat...

plan for today... nak g midvalley, masjid india, shisha-ing...

pergi mid-valley, bknnye ade ape pn...

eh ade jgk... sempat beli kain buat hari raya...

murah oh... 3 sets (lining watsoeva) baru RM150 gitu...

murahkan...

biar murah... jgn murahan... hahaha...

then da penat pusing2...

journey je da takes time...

naik monorail - ktm...

ktm die yg maha sempit and panas and busuk and lembab! shees!

then tggu bas nak g masjid india...

peh lame!!! adussss...

muke2 da binget nak tggu bas...

then got this one incident...

ade 2 mat saleh nie turun taxi...

sekali ade brg die teringgal ah...

die da jalan...

then between die and taxi driver ade kite and this one stupid security guard...

si taxi driver nie jerit laa...

"hallo MR..."

si mat saleh nie tak dgr...

kite tolong jerit pn tak dengar coz die da nak masuk entrance mid valley...

then i was like ckp dgn security guard die...

panggilkan org tu, barang die tertinggal...

gez what die buat bodoh je!

punye laa pissed off!!!

die buat muke blurrr...

then dgn suare nur yg mmg maha kuat...

panggil mat saleh tu altlast die dgr...

paham tak, die tak nak involve...

pd die tu bkn keje die...

palotakkkk!!!!

dpt bas g petaling strreet dulu...

biaselah pergi CM mesti buat yg tulis2 tu... hehehe...

sampai masjid india

g mamam...

bleh ah...

tapi tempat die yg tak best...

kotor...

eeeiiiiyyuuuu...

makan je lah... jgn tgk sekeliling...

then g beli tudung buat ole2...

jalan2... marah2... panas2...

beli tudung utk convo gak...

coz tudung convo pendek n kecik...

tapi nak cari tailor punye ssh...

ade part nie me, umi, nur nampak poster tulis

kat tgkt 8 ade alteration...

kite naik ah... ade pekerja die jgk naik sama2...

tapi die turun tingkat 3...

keluar je... paham tak...

gelap gelita!

takde pape!

kosong...

kejar lif... lif tutup...!

seram tak...

picit cepat...

die turun...

tgkat 7... 4... 3... 2... 1...

naik... 1.. 2.. 3... 4... 5... 7...

turun balik....

then naik...

da nak sampai tgkt 8...

die turun balik... paham tk...!!!!!!

takot sia...

my sis suro turun tangga...

like no way!!!!!

manelah tau ade sape2 kan...

and i was like takot giler...

takot tibe2 ade perampok ke...

mamposs... da lah takde sape2 nak call for help...

i sampai da terbayang bomba save kite sume...

k draggg...

atlast... sampai jgk lif...

rupenye kene picit both button atas and bawah...

ape laa~~~

then cari2 tempat nak jahit tudung tkde... atlast...

beli jarum and benang, jahit sendiri sudah...

bukannye susah sgt...

hehe...

my mum yang jahitkan...

then jumpe abah n zaki baru gunting rambut...

then balik hotel...

penaaaatttt...

malam plan nak shisa-ing...

yeay~~~~~

lepas shisha

balik hotel jahit tudung... gosok...

time to sleep...

i need a good rest... hehehe...

muke pun tak nak sembab...

my big day tomorrow...

lights off!

eeeiii! takoooottt...

Convo-ed (part 2)

2007-09-05T12:54:00.000+08:00

Saturday 25th August

Bangun kul 9... cepat tak...?

hehe... golek2... ~~~

kol org hotel die kate check in kul 1...

k...

then kol him saying goodbye...

uwaaaahhhh... ~~~~

he won't be around at my convo

and even can't msg or kol...

"unbreak my heart...

say you can come to my convo...

undo this hurt you cause

coz if you don't attend

i feel so alone...

uncry this tears...

i cry so many nites...

unbreak my heart~~"

ceh! jiwang naa!

wash up, kemas barang... nak dkt kul 12 gitu... keluar...

then got to know from dewi kalau nak check in kene bayar deposit...

o ohhh...

duit hotel i suro umi pegang...

takot terbelanja...

haha...

gamble je laaa....

naik bas - lrt - monorail...

dgn beg sebesar ape... thanks eh... haha...

sampai kul 1... terus check-in...

nasib bleh, die kate bayar nanti pn takpe...

hehe...

sampai hotel, lepaaakkk... sambil tgk industan...

nikmatnye sorg2... tenang je...

and my angan2 selalu, kalau jalan2 kat bukit bintang...

"kan best kalau kaya, penat2 shopping, sewa hotel utk letak barang and relax..."

kalau....~~~

then kul 3+ kluar g fetch family kat pudu...

dorg smpai, bayar duit hotel, relax....

sume kebulur...

g LOT 10 mamam...

g beli kopok2, choclates, air coke...

balik hotel relax...

mlm jalan2 kat bukit bintang...

shopping ape yg patut... beli barang lfc sikit... hehe...

then i belanje nasi ayam kat... mane ntah...

mahal sak... sume nye RM60!

setakat 5 org makan nasi aym dgn air...

huhu... umi da bising...

chill ah, my money what~~

haha...

oh, sambil makan sambil dgr lagu...

ade satu band nie... best...

tapi lagu lama2 ah... lagu arab pn ade...

bleh ah...

then jalan2 ag...

sekali tu kan... dkt dpan my hotel ade perarakan ah...

kan nak dekat merdeka...

siangnye i saw all these uniform guys main musik bwk kemah

penat aku dan nur ketawakn...

sekali tu malam dorg parade ah...

tapi style!

coz dorg da marching...

ade part dorg stop and joget! paham tak kat th2 road...

seriously, it was so damn fun... kereta sume tak bleh jalan... padan muke, haha...

all the arabs (well, kat bukit bintang out of 10, 7 org arab)

joget, gelek... huhu... lagu ape aku pun tak sure...

tapi seriously fun...

coz atfirst sume cam formal kan

lepas tu sume gelek....

"dangdut is the music of my country...~~~"

sekali tu ade one group yang pegang all the flags...

gez what... singapore's flag pn ade...

wuuhuhuu...

btw, lupe nak ckp, sempat jumpe datuk fikri

die pn holiday gak, tempat keje die bwk...

sebesar2 k.l... bleh jumpe sey...

hehe...

balik hotel, tgk tv... lepak...

lights off!

Convo-ed (part 1)

2007-08-31T17:50:00.000+08:00

Friday 24th August

at 12.30am

the graduates from iium

i think 12 of us

took the usual midnite bus...

as at 11am we will be having our rehearsal

and we have to take the IMCS thingy...

so... excited and kecoh giler...

aku yg paling smgt dgn beg tarik...

yg lain relax je...

coz most of them balik after rehearsal

as for me, i stayed until tuesday...

sume excited tanye kak y, how's the rehearsal nnt

bla bla bla...

then nasir was like...

"paham tak, da lame tak naik midnite bus mcm gini,

feeling sak dgr lagu jiwang..." au kama qola.

emo lah plak si nasir nie

tapi btol ah sey...

last feeling naik bas malam sambil dgr mp3

dengan aircon nye yg sejuk nak mampos...

"Dalam perjalanan ini... menuju destinasi...

pelbagai lebuh raya di lalui..."

ceh! jiwang...

da excited2... atlast sume tetido...

sampai uia kul 6.00pagi...

disambut oleh azan sumbuh

dari masjid sultan shah...

sayu giler... mcm extra special si muazzin nye suara...

then terus bersquatting kat bilek fana....

nasib fana da bgn...

then bebual2 sambil baring2...

semua tahan each other jgn tido...

psl kite nak kluar pkl 8.30

pkl 9 is the registration

seperti biasa mesti nak kiasu...

huhuhu... (",)

da wash up sume...

pergi lah CAC...

nak amek invitation card

biaselah bdk Fiqh punye counter mesti ramai org

then queue die tak gerak2!

with all the...

"eh... apo kabo... comel no laa ni...

bile hang tunang...

hang keje mane skrg...

eh, che tak keje lagi..."

watever k...

menyusahkan org...

org nak cepat, die bebual je...

sampai queue tak gerak...

ape lagi, aku n laila pn cut queue...

bkn dorg perasan pn...

muahahaha...

selamat dpt invitation card

mcm dewi, da sign sume

sekali invitation card tak cukup laa!

pathetic btol.......

after that g amek IMCS card

sempat laa jumpe my automotive nye instructor...

bebual psl PDA, brg2 kat sg... blah!

then teringat nak amek commerocative book

(do i spell it rite?)

pergi alumni collect...

tp t-shirt blom siap...

then g finance...

jgn tanye buat ape, ape result die...

tak nak tau, tak nak cerita.

duk hs jap...

jumpe bdk2 sume... huhu... byk rindu...

temankan shasha and darwis makan

sambil ketawakan muka2 org yang ade kat cm book tu...

dgn nasir and dewi sekali...

then da penat sgt, psl tak tido...
balik bilik fana... lepaaaaakkk... penat giler...
perut kosong blom makan... mmg sengaja...
psl nnt nak makan nando's huhuhu!
yeaaayyy~~~

kul 3.30 bgn terus cuci muke, tak mandi...
jalan g cac nak amek dewi nye invitation card...
tanye fana takleh g coz ade assignment... :(

naik bas g nando's kat pudu...
order my fav meal...
3/4 chicken + mediterranean rice + coleslaw (cane nak spell?)
nape je da grad... hahaha...

sedapnye... then i add wedges and peri dip
yum... yum...
ilang kempunan aku... huhu...

then g maidin, dewi beli barag sikit...
dpt beli celcom prepaid, yeaayyy ~~

jumpe shasha ngan darwis kat klcc
sempat singgah A&W minum float...
then balik...
sampai kul 10+...
penatnye... tido tak sampai 2 jam...

bual2... tgk video clips...
bual kat fon setelah sekian lame...
sekali tu tertido laa...
buat malu je... hahaha...

lights off!

U CUT ME DEEP

2007-08-22T12:14:00.000+08:00

i'm not in the mood

i feel so down...

"Aku cuba untuk jadi yang terbaik

namun ada dia... yang lebih kau cinta...

yang lebih kau cinta..."

i knew it already but still

kenape degil nak jadi first person to wish him...?

how do u feel...

da semangat2 beli phoenix card...

set alarm psl tak nak miss...

11.58pm, i start dialing...

pasal takot line tak dpt...

line kat m'sia mmg bengong!

and guess what...

sampai pukul 12.30am i try to call...

its either, the no. u juz call not reachable...

atau bleh reach tapi... rejected!

paham tak reject!

how could you...

yaa... i guess i'm not the one you expect to be the first person to wish you...

but then dun msg me by saying that

"kjap ek... ade keje sikit..."

ape keje yang tak bleh ditinggalkan tu?

i juz wanna say...

"HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY..."

you didn't break my heart...

u slash my heart...

i can feel it bleeding...

till now...

feel like everything i did such a waste...

smgt2 cari hadiah...

tak kesah sejauh mane pun...

still try my best to send it on time...

and bought for him

the thing he always want...

eventhough everywhere i went

out of stock...

still drag my leg...

find any free time i could...

to find you the thing u always want...

tapi bile on the actual day...

end up mcm gini...

kecewa? binget?

tak ah...

sedih je...

but it good also this thing happen...

atleast make me realize my position rite now...

well... mmg dari dulu i'm in the same position...
ntahlah...

Zai... be strong k...
u can live without him...
u don't need a man to make you special...
u don't need a man to make your life complete...
u'r strong... cool k...

u cut me deep...

I WANT YOU...

2007-08-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

Well... too much to say...
too much to ask...

why do i feel this way?
what should i do?
should i give up?
why is this guilty feeling keep bothering me?
why should i feel this way?
my sister said i'm crazy...

everytime we together
i have this one feeling that i can't describe...
i won't describe...
i'm scared...
i shouldn't feel this way...

should i go for it?
some said that...
go for it...
but... i don't want to...

deep in my heart..
i want... i really really want...
but...

god... pls help me...

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?

I could feel I could feel you near me,
even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why...

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you...
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why...

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby...

GOSH... IF YOU'RE READING THIS
PLS DO KNOW THAT...

I WANT YOU!
REALLY...

i know... it will happen... in my dreams... :'(

PROBE 1

2007-08-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hallo everybody...

k nak sambung...

to talk about activities that i had for the last few weeks...

last friday, 27th july, for outdoor activities

we went to Bukit Batok Nature Reserves...

(every friday morning ade outdoor activities)

so... berbekalkan roti telor sebanyak 3 tupperware besar...

prepared by umi, hehehe...

pergilah beramai2 dengan bdk2 nie sume...

sume bwk payung coz takot ujan...

then... bile sampai je kat one of the shelter there

hujan turun selebat-lebatnye...

nasib ade shelter and bwk payong!

bdk2 da smgt bwk plastik and baldi nak main water bomb

bwk bola...

gini mcm tak payah water bomb!

water telah dibomkan dari langit, huhuhu...

atfirst sume tggulah hujan berhenti...

tak sampai 10 minit sume da gelisah!

almost all main ujan...!

yg tak nak basah tu, terpekik2 laa...

the guys pergi toilet isi plastik nak buat water bomb...

kejap lagi...

sume lari nak lempar...

especially to me coz nak sabo birthday girl!

haha... tapi selamat ade payung yang kuat sebagai shelter...

hehehe... kecoh giler!

by the end, sume basah kuyup... nak tak nak kene jgk...

dalam pukul 12 gitu, me and Asfi decided to go back...

hujan masih lebat and ala ala banjir gitu...

end up, most of us yang balik kaki ayam..

time kat park takpelah jugak...

bile da lalu kat blok, road, pasar...

sume tgk kite basah kuyup... hehehe...

peduli ape aku...

sampai centre je, sume g toilet, most of us bwk baju spare

except for mua!

selenge btol, coz tka expect akan basah gitu...

hahaha...

kat centre sume kaki ayam...

me kat ofis terketar-ketar kesejukkan...

aaahhhhh... i need a hug, hehehe...

basah pn basah laa!

yg penting FUN! tol tak?

k next...

last thursday till friday, 2nd aug to 3rd aug...

we were having Probe 1 at Sentosa...

kirekan for the first time laa overnight dgn static masing2...

hari thursday tu, after all the preparations...

ard 2pm kite keluar laa beramai2... 25 org...

jalan kaki g MRT Bukit Batok...

turun Jurong East tukar train pergi Outram Park

kat Outram Park naik NEL pergi Harborfront

kat Harborfront naik monorail g Sentosa

then jalan kaki cari shelter besar kat Siloso Beach...

journey drag giler! and of coz! bile da 25 org...

kecoh giler! hehehe...

smpai dalam pukul 4 gitu ah...

masing2 static da cari spot masing2...

kite start dgn buat paper stand yang diperbuat dgn kayu...

after that main magic carpet...

nie lah hasilnye...

Satu2 grp tak nak ngaku kalah, hehehe...

lpas tu main Beach Ball...

nie pun satu2 smgt nak menang...

and as usual bile part bola... my grp yang menang! huhuhu... (",)

FYI, nie sume i handle sendiri coz Maddog g amek makanan

Asfi pulak jaga barang2...

time mcm ginilah perlu sgt nenek2 ikot coz bleh tolong jage barang, hehehe...

lepas abes je main bola... sume nak mandi lagi

(FYI lagi, before main game, sume da g lari berendam kat laut!)

sekali tu Asfi kene pergi harborfront kejap amek makanan dari maddog...

so bayangkan i jaga budak2 nie sume sorg2!

and i was like standing in the middle of the beach...

mata kanan supervise barang2 kat shelter...

mata kiri supervise bdk2 mandi laut...

mane lah tau ade pape kan... u never know!

jeles tgk dorg mandi but i have no choice but to supervise everything...

ntah berape kali dorg tarik my hand nak me masuk laut...

tapi i can't! uwaaaah....... :'(

atlast da penat jaga... gue tersandar di pohon...

nie lah tempat yang akan kite bermalam i.e tido!

pathetic eh... hehe...

anyway, i think after one hour later... baru lah asfi and maddog sampai...

legaaa... pak usop pun ade jgk... tapi die tak overnight ah...

neway, lupe nak ckp, time dorg mandi2 tu

dey carry this one guy buat cam buai2 gitu, takot2kan die

geletek2 die lah... sampai die mabok and pengsan!

paham tak?! sume panic! izam and akmal lincah bawak rifaie pergi tepi pantai...

tepuk2 muke die tak bgn2...

then Don pam dada die... Acit kate: Don jgn sembarang

Aaa! pam aje laa...

tetibe dtg satu bdk nie, can't recall who, datang bwk air nak renjis kat muke rifaie...

oi! org nak kluarkan air dari badan die, die nak masukkan pulak...

sume panik sia... panik giler...

after a few pumps, baru lah rifaie batok kluarkan air...

fuhhh... sume lega... and menyesal gurau melampau sgt!

sume maaf punye maaf kat rifaie... hehehe... (",)

dah tu... sume binget coz takde org amek gambar!

katekan tgh panik... apaaaraaahhh...!

then da nak maghrib gitu... sume freshen up...

eat dinner together... candle light dinner with Static masing2...

alamak... gambar dgn aiman je lah yang dapat...

then at 10pm we start our Probe...

dimulakan dengan Spiderweb and Trust game....

Then, start lah Probe until 5 pagi! paham tak...

sume ngantok tapi sume tahan je...

bile satu ngantok, yg satu kejut, suluh torchlight kat mata!

actually i'm quiet hepi coz sume cooperate... ingatkan dorg nak main je...

Probe 1 is where we share our family background and upbringing...

my static yang datang ari tu ade 7 org...

so... bayangkan lah satu2 nak cerite...

and their stories like... walllauuu... seriously touch my heart...

oopppsss tak bleh cerite...

strictly P & C...

by 5 pagi, sume tido... bersepah2... peduli ape aku...

da ngantok!

at 7pm, me sadar... ceh! sadar cepat tu...

yelah, kene tunjuk contoh sikit... hehee...

da mandi baru kejut bdk2...

paham tak ade yang da pergi berendam balik kat laut!

pagi2.... sejuuuukkkk... hehehe...

sume da siap2 mandi, da lawa, da wangi...

before we go off tu harborfront hawker centre to have our breakfast...

kite amek gambar dulu...

(behind, from left: Lena, Don, Dan, Aiman

front, from left: Munirah, Zuleha, Mis, Me...)

*not in picture and couldn't attend: Feezah...

waaa... feel so bad dat u couldn't come...

next time k... all of us missed u...

by the way lupe nak cerite...

one day before pergi Sentosa sempat beli sliper...

tadaaaaaa....... hehehe.... (",)

lawa kan? purple + adidas = PERFECT!

then ramai2 naik beach tram + bas sentosa

sampai harborfront interchange...

still duduk dgn static masing order makan...

breakfast... tapi bdk2 nie punye breakfast nasi!

termasuk lah aku...

lepas makan sume blaaahhh..

me and Asfi bwk 9 sleeping bags + 3 first aid kits + barang2 lain + own backpack...

naik cab balik centre...

sampai centre dalam kul 12 gitu... campak je barang2 dalam bilik...

malas nak kemas... da ngantok sgt! bayangkan tido 2 jam je!

then i balik rumah... tak keje... yeahhh!!!

giler kape nak keje? mabok sey...

balik je terus Zzzzzz..... sampai petang....

da laa... penaaaattt...

My 24th Birthday!

2007-08-06T20:04:00.000+08:00

Walllllauuuuu! long time no blog one...

feel like itchy itchy ah my body, my hand my mouth...

waa... got HMFD ah? really ah....?

aiyya... i talk what ah?

long time no blog, talk talk like what only eh...

k lah...

tau... da lame tak blog... busy giler ah...

ntah lah... mane ntah nak dapat time...

24 hours per day mmg tak cukup!

huhuhu...

k lah, cerite ape yang ingat je k...

hehehe...

aparaaah...

nak cerite psl my 24th birthday...

on the 26th July 2007...

makin tua kan makin sikit org wish birthday...

and as usual, yg expect to wish, tak wish me...

yg tak expect lgsg, wish lah pulak...

tak paham...

bagus jugak ade friendster nie...

dapat lah jugak remind a FEW ppl out there...

kalau takde frenster, lagi laa sunyi sepi hp aku...

yelah... yelah... takde peminat...

eh lame tak ckp "yelah... yelah..."

ckp lagi...

yelah... yelah...

cakap dkt org2 sekeliling skrg nie dorg tak beberapa paham ah...

dey tot i'm too sensitive

padahal... yelah... yelah...

padahal... padahal...

so... on the 25th July, dalam petang gitu...

my mum called me at the office

saying that ade package for me from Terengganu!

paham tak! dalam pukul 5 gitu my mum called

and for the first time, nak tggu pukul 6 rase mcm 10 jam!

then bile balik je... nampak lah package atas meja

kecik sikit dari A4 size... tebal lah jgk...

tak sabar nye nak bukak!

lagi pun blom pkl 12...

so tggu je lah...

hti berdebar2 and excited giler...

call him saying that the package had arrived!

and he was like...

"huh? really..."

he can't believed it coz die baru pos semalamnye...

and he was told by the postwoman it takes 3 days to arrive

then i was like...

"btol... kalau tak, how do i know u send me sumting..."

cepatkn sampai...

1 hari je...

then i baru teringat...

"how do u know my add eh?"

coz i never give him my hjome add before...

die ketawa, sounded fishy...

then he told me, rupenye die pakat dgn Nur

ceh... hampey tul...

then when the clock strucked at 12am...

he called me...

nyanyi "Happy Birthday to u.................."

ade jgk background singer oleh Nur and Umi...

nyanyi same2 sekali...

dalam hati felt very touched coz for the last 3 years

tak dapat celebrate birthday kat rumah

tahun nie... AT LAST!

tapi sedih jgk coz no more surprise party for me

like the last 3 years...

hehehe...

tapi surprise jgk laa by the gift from him...

thanks... (",)

sambil talk sambil bukak...

and guess what?

mmg bende yang tak disangka langsung!

the gift was wrapped in a cute-sweet-pink box

containing

KAIN!

its a nice flower printed white kain jorjet (did i spell it rite?)

with purple lining...

it suited perfectly!

and he said that both came separately

he was the one who choose to match it...

ceh! pandai naa!

saspekkkkkk... hehehe...

thanks dear!

seriously nice and surprising!

ingatkan liverpool fc or adidas stuff as usual...

nak suruh zai jadi pompan eh...

hehehe... (",)

nanti zai antar tailor, buat dress then pakai buat keje k...

as u requested... (",)

anyway... dekat keje almost everyone wished me...

ade jgk laa yang tak wish...

sape laa tu ek...

hehe...

thanks!

balik... malam baru laa potong kek...

coz sume da ade kat rumah...

here...

yang atas tu gambar kek... (like duhh!)

kaler purple! paham tak!

hehehe... thanks umi... (",)

then... one pink + one red roses were from Nur... thanks sis!

then... yang kain tu, as mentioned above...

hehehe... plus 2 sweet cards...

the words inside was priceless...! (",)

then yang box wrap kaler purple tu...

from Abah, Umi, Zaki...

teka ape?

hehe... tadaaaa...

pokoknya... yang gue idam2min sie...

i'm so hepi... bau best giler...

really soothing and relaxig

and make me feel close to sumone... (",)

"Bila rindu ini... masih untukmu....."

(",)

neway, Umi Dah gave me one nice purple dress...

thanks Umi Dah!

byk btol kaler purple yang gue dapat tahun nie...

hehehe... (",)

mmm... Hikmah II da start plak...

sambung k... ade lagi satu cerite best!

(",)

CARNIVAL II

2007-07-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

k... sambung balik...

ape drag naa?

psl tu ari ade visitor from Clubilya

so, i have to set up everything...

k, about the Bands Performance...

By N.V, Still Here 17 and OSY...

isy! tukar laa name OSY tu...

tak best betol pggl bdk2 tu band OSY

i mean they are really talented...

can play bands, drama, kompang, joget...

good good...

tapi asal introduce je...

"presenting... OSY..."

tak sedap btol bunyi nye kan?

hehehe...

(psss... OSY means Out of School Youth)

then after the band performances...

oh! actually before that laa...

ade performance by Fauzie Laily (Ogy), Shah Iskandar, Leandra...

then got one part nie i jalan belakang stage...

sekali tu Shah and Ogy tgh dgr MP3...

sambil nyanyi2... tangkap mood kappa...?

then Ogy was like...

"eh... ini lah kakak sedare aku..."

then he salam me...

and to my surprise...

Shah also extended his hand and salam me!

and i was like sambut je...

siap cium tangan lagi...

Few days later... baru i perasan yang...

he's 1 year older than me...

then he salam me siap cium tangan sekali!

am i look that old?!

hmmm....

mmm....

no laa...

kn?

my sis ckp mayb psl Ogy introduce me

as kakak sedare...

sebab tu die salam jgk...

wait a minute..

i know some of u may think like...

nape bleh salam2 plak kn...

bukan mahram...

uuhhh...

let me tell u this...

since i keje dgn Ain society...

dgn all these youths at my center...

they were like wild but then dey still respect...

respect melampau lampau...

smpai semua dorg salam...

tak kire la yg lelaki ke perempuan...

mesti dorg salam me...

their age between 15 - 21 yrs old...

and i feel serba salah...

tk kasi dorg salam...

dorg nie "special" youth...

ala ala kurang kasih sayang gitu...

kurang moral support, motivation...

kalau dorg nak salam i tolak...

i takot dorg rase...

"tkde org nak sayang aku..."

so... moral of the story...

tkpe kn kalo kite langgar sikit hukum just for the good benefits for the society...?

kirekan ape?

Addaruurat Tubiihul Mahzurat...

Irtikaab Akkhafad Daarain...

ceh... btol ke tak...?

zai! da lupe ke...

fana or others, correct me if i'm wrong with the maxims...

neway... lepas performances by Fauzie, Shah, Leandra...

the band performances...

after that my slot...

hehe... seram je...

kerana slot nie laa buat aku tk dpt tgk performances semua...

cume N.V and Still Here 17 nye performance je dpt tgk last2 part...

my slot is...

Juara Sensasi Ain...

lepas kumpulkan dorg kat BBE Gen-y

collect their CDs/VCDs...

tested them...

then ramai2 g hardcourt...

susun dorg mengikut susunan dari judges...

score sheet, pen, mineral water, mic, meja and kerusi

da prepare for all the judges...

the singing competition starts at 5 pm...

dari 14 contestants...

10 je terpilih for final

actually nak pilih 8 je...

but then very competitive...

judges decide to choose 10...

the judges gimme the score sheet

then i was rushingly went to back stage and count the scores...

audiences semua tgh nyanyi2 lagu PENCINTA WANITA

same2 dgn kumpulan KARISMA...

pressure aku...

menggigil tekan calculator...

hehehe...

yelah... kalau salah kire maut sia...

my admin crew semua hilang entah ke mana...

tak sempat nak cari dorg...

so kire laa sorg2....

berkali2 kire takot salah... hehe...

then dpt laa the top 10...

one of them bdk kite!

hehehe...

tkde main kelong ah...

then Othman Hamzah, our MC for both days

annouced the finalist...

the Final was the next day...

end at 6.45

break kejap coz maghrib...

tentatively Mdm Halimah Yacob

will arrived at 8.15pm...

so my bdk2 nie...

mmg dari pukul 4 ptg

da start siap2...

pakai all the baju melayu...

with all the props and everything...

psl Sri Warisan ade satu org je at that time

utk make-up for 18 org!

paham tk...

the following pics are the pics when they rehearsal...

on the actual day punye ade kat our official camera...

i blom sempat upload...

psl on the actual day i tak bawak camera...

nak bawak mcm mane...

kat leher gantung tag, pen, walkie talkie...

kat kocek semua ade duit for standby... ade PDA...

kat tangan kepit file...

serembah serembih sia aku...

jgn byk ckp ah zai...

tgk ah gambar2 nie...

hehehe... (",)

My Girlz... ceh! posing maut!

tu diaa... My Boyz... kompang jgn tak kompang...

hmmm... later i upload gambar for the event k...

then at 7.30 semua da ready kat khemah nak tggu Madam...

bleh harap jgk dorg nie...

coz i suruh siap sendiri

won't be able to help them prepare coz busy ngan Juara Sensasi Ain

semua da nervous, nak terberak semua...

hehe...

8pm semua da ready, berdiri mengikut posisi masing2..

Don as Khalifah pucat je muke... hehehe...

8.15pm Mdm pn sampai...

terus kompang plus tarian...

cantik ah... walaupn kompang slack sikit

coz open space kan... so tak begitu kuat ah...

then Zarrin silat, sembah... Mdm pn masuk...

diiringi all these beautiful ladies and gentleman...

fuh...!!! lega...

da 2 bende lepas...

then some of them lari sepantas kilat balek BBE Gen-y...

coz dorg ade drama performance plak lepas nie...

its a 15 mins drama slot before Forum starts...

yg lain2 tolong dorg "undress" them, hehe...

After all the speeches by Mdm, President Ain...

Certificate Presentations...

nie pn aku handle gak...

tapi i passed to my admin crews...

lepas da terjerit2 suruh bdk2 nie...

lincahhh laa...

terus dgn bdk2 nie lari lagi pegi hardcourt...

standby kat back stage for the drama slot...

terus...

"presenting... OSY..." lagi... mmm...

and tell u what...

they gave a kick-ass show!

serious! time practice satu2 tak feeling, asik ketawa je...

time the actual event...

satu2 belakon real ah...

aku yg jd takot...

and some of the audiences' feedbacks mcm

takot tgk dorg belakon, seems like kejadian sebenar...

die ala ala "Hanyut" gitu...

tepuk bahu ah for M.Ramlee and the actors/actresses...

huhu... *clap* *clap*

after dorg belakon je...

rase satu bende berat kat bahu hilang sey...

i mean for Saturday...

Sunday coming up but then tak sesibuk Saturday...

k laah... cam penat gitu...

nak gosok baju for tomoro...

updates for Sunday coming....

CARNIVAL I

2007-07-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

ok sambung...

mm... byk sgt nak update but which one first?
i know lame tak update blog coz bz giler with the carnivals and everything...
k lah cerite psl carnival dulu...

i can say that its a big success...
of course kalau nak dikirekan dari segi crowd...
hampey sikit ah...
but still i felt happy...
coz last weekend...
numerous of weddings and other events being held...
ye lah semua nak 07.07.07...
then hari bumi lagi...
then the place was not that strategic...
kat bukit batok... tak ramai melayu mcm kat East side...
then dari interchange bukit batok nak kene naik bas lagi...
but still...
i think the crowd memuaskan...

dan yang penting tkde yang slack...
semua goes well mengikut tentative...
tak lari ke ape...
kalau lari kejar laa...
lepas tu drag masukkan dalam line balik...
k draag...

ade belok2 pn we manage to make it runs smoothly...
semua nmpak nye berpuas hati...
semua buat keje masing2...

cume satu je i tak hepi sgt...
sometimes i nak tolong angkat barang...
kemas2 sikit...
but then ade je yg halang...
mesti ade suare-suare yg ckp...
jgn buat... tinggalkan...
suruh budak2 je...

then wen i angkat barang mesti bdk2 dgn lincahnye tolong...
i mean...
i suke keje angkat2 barang ni...
kemas2...
panjat2...
pasang tu pasang nie...
pakat jumpsuit... then berpeluh2...
tangan, muke semua ade minyak...
eh tu da Automotive skill sey...
hahaha...
rindu laa plak bau minyak kereta...
spanar, rachad, screw driver semua...
best nye...

k takpe... balik rumah nnt ko pegang laa all the tools kat rumah tu...
then g kedai minyak pergi bau minyak...
gian kape...
huhuhu...

k tukar channel...
i mean, i suke keje yg memerlukan tenaga...
mcm best laa..
i just feel satisfied out of it,,,
rather than keje mcm...
kat atas stage kasi certs and prizes...
formal formal nie sume...
that's so not me sey...

tp kalo org tgk dari segi pakaian...
mesti org ingat i vain, posh punye type...
but then i'm not...

my dressing psl keje je...
ye lah... takkan nak pakai jeans or jumpsuit plak
beh keje kat ofis...

kalau lelaki lain sey...
dorg pakai jeans and t-shirt je da nampak hansem...
still bleh consider formal plus the shoe...
i mean they always look cool...
tp perempuan...
pakai jeans je, then masuk meeting...
mcm tk kene gitu...
kalau lelaki ok plak eh...
but sumtimes i wear jeans also...
tu pn kalau da tk leh tahan...
hehehehe...

k td bebual psl ape sey...
oh carnival...
the best part i like was
our rock concert
coz the bands ROCKS!!!
seriously...
bukan bunyi mcm band org kawen ke ape...
sedap giler...
and suare sume best...
rock kapak punye...
huhuhu...
my heart beats so fast sey watching dem...
tak tau laa nak describe mcm mane...
hehehe...

i also bought one of the bands' album...
tp blom sempat nk dgr...
hehehe...

alamak... jap agi ade visitors laa
blom set-up tempat...
nnt sambung k...